King Kimbit - Perspective lyrics

It would be easier to get by If I were just addicted to d** But the only way I really feel high Is by hitting a fix of your love Letting you get away wasn't the first time That I did something dumb Now, the only thing that's still alive For me is that vision of us But I know that in your eyes, I'm not sufficient enough To get you thinking of love ever being fitting for us And that's pretty hard to swallow; it's trickling in tough I intake it as I got to like the drink in this cup Ignorance is bliss Knowledge knows no mercy A reason for another sip If it's not because I'm thirsty Actually, f** that sh** Another bottle wouldn't hurt me It's much less dense, this liquor Than the sorrow I'm immersed in so it just goes over my head like it's a wave and i'm a surfer but ends up drowning me instead like a self inflicted murder except I don't end up dead perhaps to let me suffer further I try to recall the last thing she said and wonder why she don't find me worthy I know I'm an alcoholic but never saw this as a problem Because back in Viet Nam we always drank at family bondings And sure baby girl has asthma, but I have an addiction I bet it wouldn't even matter if I just smoked a couple quick ones So she thinks she wasn't good enough For me to even give that up But never understood as much It wasn't 'cos she isn't loved I was just dealing with a lot of sh** And never received the how to be a father kit No one ever taught me how to raise a kid in Canada Sometimes I feel like she'd be better off If her father figure were a mannequin That way, maybe it would have spared her some of the bruises And she wouldn't have to be convinced that All marriage is prone to be ruined But this is me, speaking from now 'cos back in the day, I never knew this And for damn sure if I did I would have never put her through it Maybe that's why they left me 'cos they were tired of being neglected And so they cut off, disconnected Damn, I should have paid attention But this liquor And maybe i shouldn't have fallen into slumber and left her alone with my friend in the kitchen Whatever happened, I never wondered 'cos I never noticed since then she's been different And maybe she never spoke about it because she knew I wouldn't have k**ed him That f**ing sick son of a b**h My neglect kept me out of prison If I had known what had went on I would have grabbed his throat and slit it Maybe this is where she gets it My psychopath lead to my children Maybe that's why they left me Because they find daddy too crazy They've seen what daddy's gotten into And ain't tryna be related But the craziest thing I've done Is I've waited Twenty years much too late To tell my daughter she's sacred Twenty years much too late To tell her she's gold and not silver But there are more skeletons in her closet than years on her body who stop the message from being delivered The many men she went through Trying to fill the void I established Never gave her what she needed But turned her heart to ice like magic And the freeze got to her eyes So when she looked, she couldn't find Herself Beautiful She can't be blamed for what she's gone through Only in her memories do the bruises show Nobody can see them or speak on their behalf Except I, who started the pattern I wish I could take it all back But baby girl, I can't reverse it No matter how much I would love to Just know I never meant to hurt you And that I will always love you