[Refrain: Khary] Yeah, I just... I just... I don't know Just listen [Verse 1: Khary] Alright, can I be honest? I've broke rules, I've broke hearts, I've broke promises You might think that I'm self aware But I fake confidence But I feel free tonight I can see the light My way out of this It begins with me Things I was doing for you Are things I should do for me Yeah the giants sleep I've got a stalk to climb Better not make a peep But damn it's steep I ain't never seen the peak They don't want you to see the peak DJ Khaled voice I ain't know that I had choice I ain't know that I had choice I ain't know why I'am my opposition That puts me odd position This is my audition I know that I talk too much I know I'm not the type to listen But here I am Right here before your door My mom says I need the lord But if spent all my money on girls and clothes Holy water I just can't afford I gotta fill that void, some way I can't follow you I can't follow you Please don't follow me I got problems see Pride I'm swallowing Really honestly (ah ah) I think I need time at home I think I need to meditate (ah ah) I think I need time alone I could use a year in space [Chorus: Khary] I don't love myself But you keep loving me I am not the man That I wanna be I don't love myself But you keep holding me I can not be yours And live comfortably I got the whole wide world in the palm of my hands Though I have it for ransom, it makes all the demands [Verse 2: Jon Hope] Just another day on a lonely Earth Tryna see which ex gonna stone me first Searched my soul for my own rebirth And convinced myself that don't need church What is my self worth? In state of panic Depression gets hard to manage New York hurt my heart But made me a man Rhode Island is a different planet Am I not Brave? Does that make me coward? I used to want to save world put a cape on But is this world ours? Conscious Khary Became Captain Khary For the sake of myself And the sake of you There's no telling what one might do With too much whiskey and too much truth Some go crazy remain minute Some go load gun to aim and shoot Some go dropout I blame the school Oh how I miss you an aimless youth What's the right time to hang my boots? What's the right time to call a truce? I deal with darkness inside my mind So it feels like sunshine to be recluse Luck is light But that's what makes me right The fact that I know my life Is a roll of dice Not a girl in my Rolodex That can make me forget my price I am not my vice Overworked I need 2 brains Never hang like Hussein Dark nights without Bruce Wayne Not afraid to be crazy We all are I'm afraid to be too sane [Chorus: Khary]