Key To Arson - Throttle Pusher lyrics

I've got a gun pointed at my head And Im contemplating You make me feel like I'd be better off dead Im falling And Im breaking I can't pick myself up Im calling Im shaking Will someone please pick up So am i dead? Or still alive? Will i make it through the night I feel like Im loosing my mind But I will never lose the fight Got a razor to my wrist And im going crazy I can't believe its come to this But this is what you've made me Too many secrets to conceal Too many scars to not be real And this addiction of mine is k**ing me Dont want it But I need it Cuz I have lost controll