Kevin Randolph - Just A Man lyrics

[Verse 1] Yeah, this is my vision Written without second thought or revision The type of sh** that affect you like an oncoming collision That just make you freeze, drop to your knees and beg 'em Please Lord, forgive me for gripping a semi now When searching for God all I ever do is stare up While Satan sending me women Wearing nothing but they hair up Got the condom on the dresser, I can't wait to undress her Would you think lesser of me if I did it? Cause I get lonely, I'm human, and boy it's been a minute Fresh out the states, surrounded by women that wanna hit it But should I take the p**y just cause I could get it? Or do I want something that's more committed? God damn, it's hard to admit it As you focus on the little things, the bigger ones will get you So I minimize the negatives to see the bigger picture I get richer while you f**ers hate So keep it up and watch a young brother elevate I'm black and white but racism I still cannot evade I never understood the concept, even to this day You know we're all the same in the eyes of a blade Because when men shed blood it's still the same shade [Hook] That's why I'm just a man homie Flesh and blood, I'm just a man But I don't think they understand homie I ain't perfect, I'm just a man Yeah, y'all think I'm more than just a man [Verse 2] I contemplate on the daily if I'll survive and strive To be the greatest lyricist dead or alive, I gotta prevail That's my word like excel Went from a small town in West Deer Park to XXL Now we shopping at Louis V, back in the day it was Ross They calling me the savior, hope they don't give me the cross Now that's the realest sh** you ever heard Never in the streets but I was closer than the curb Do you feel me?—Whole world wanna k** me Signed a deal but I'm still me—in five years will I still be? Ever since I was a youngin this is all I've ever wanted Always kept it real while they perpetrated and fronted I was in the studio while they was gettin' blunted Always have my doubts but deep down I knew I'd run it Sportin' Armani like menage a trois that's double breasted A lot of time I've invested and never once have I rested Feeling nervous like when you getting tested The game is over saturated, completely infested The greatest story ever told, realest song ever written To hell with a Plan B, motherf**er I ain't kiddin I''m just trying to get this money, I'm just trying to get paid That's the type of mentality put careers in the grave f** how much you made What's it worth if your memory fade? Now I ain't perfect, on occasion I'm strayed It's been forever since I prayed and I guess today is the day So I step in the booth and treat that sh** like a confessional Thinking back as I reminisce Wondering; does God even exist? A man of faith but mentally I feel at risk What you want from me, where am I supposed to go? Seems like you never talk, tell me how I'm supposed to know? I'm just a man, I ain't perfect—is this life even worth it? It's time to dig up the past so f** it let's unearth it Like my childhood, living free like a child should Remember the time I opened the bedroom door crack? And saw my daddy smoking more crack? No food in my house, we just couldn't afford that Momma drinking, sleeping until five But she always seemed to get up whenever men arrived Feeling alone at like eleven Segregated from the other kids like it was 1957 I've loved, I've hated, I've cried, I've died inside I've resurrected but don't neglect that I've modified I'm stronger, faster, better than ever before And everything I've been through can honestly a**ure I'm no less, no more [Hook]