Kendrick Lamar - Mirror See, Mirror Tell (Solipsist Thoughts) lyrics

[Sang in the background throughout the song:] Mirror see, mirror tell [Verse 1:] My whole life I was lucid dreaming awake That's why all these years I couldn't find my way Couldn't see my fate, couldn't picture my name On a history book, after the word great It was silly cause that's all i ever wished for Lost in a world which I could not get before Found myself on a full moon night He was a werewolf, he tried to hide Seems like he was a little bit shy I knew it wasn't easy, but hoped and tried To find him, to see how things go But I was too scared to show Forced him to unveil, although he didn't want I put in risk our agglomerated bond He went mad, then I lost my temper But we were twins, new 9/11 We weren't angry, we've never been But we were searching, and searching's a sin And I felt like I was stupid as hell We are the same, what did I expect? I was an airhead and ignorant, that's all Didn't know how to calm, this aflutter soul Now it's me versus me, we should be ama**ed But when the affray starts, there is no trust We were afoul, why not try afresh Amalgamation's afoot, no more this mess Hoped it would work under these circumstances Cause deep down there was fire, under these ashes Just couldn't be found, I coulnd't realise That I am the truth behind people's lies In the aftereffect of being a stranger to me In the aftermath of being a beast set free Maybe I'm a hero, cause I fought my monster Commited hubris, but I showed my luster Maybe no hero, but who could stand this Not knowing who are you Not knowing whose is The reflection in the mirror These eyes seem known But the whole picture makes my mind blown That's why I'm searching to find myself The mirror won't talk, trapped in its hell That's why I'm searching to find who I am The mirror can't see, what I really became That's why I'm searching to find who's the man Inside that mirror, behind that verse [Verse 2:] I watched my life happening but I don't know if I'm existing I admitted I'm great but I don't know if I mean it I tried to know more , what the hell was I thinking How can I know more when I don't know if I'm living My existence an illusion, my personality a creation Everything around me a conscious hallucination Lucid dreaming, or dreaming reality Going crazy , all the way to insanity Going schizo like the great John Nash Hope these voices stop 'fore I prove Riemman's Losing worth, degrading myself Suicide bomber, haven't snapped yet We Kamikazes convinced, for what we believe in So are you, cause you think, reality's what you live in Not something you made, not something you hope for You hope these words ain't real, but they are. I think so I made 'em for me, or you made 'em for you You made me to peep subconscious truth You actually made me be part of that Part of a world you actually made up Ain't no truth is true, so how's reality real Ain't no me is you, but we share the same idea Ain't gonna stop, but I'll make a pause Cause I'm exhausted by these solipsist thoughts