Kaysinners - Past Thoughts lyrics

[Verse 1: Kaysinners] Past thoughts running through my mind. I was young and dumb in my past time. Were you more than one when you heard lies? I was under one when I heard mines. Still didn't see my father when I turned 9. I was focused on my thoughts tryna be fine. Father k**ed my sister now I have a brother. That happened In the future cause he raped my mother. I believe I was three or two. Momma always crying in a lonely room. With a tumor in her head how is she alive? Couple moments in my life where she could've died. I'm just so hurt let me share my pain. Momma tryna get food in the pouring rain. Pain burn and stings like a prickly cactus. Then she said that she couldn't have this [Verse 2: Kaysinners] Now I'm living for the only simple moment. I'll spend a couple days trying to be so focused. But you know that I always gotta Keep on going it's like a boat, you can't move if you just stop rowing. Family outside doesn't give support. People turning lies into a secret sport. Had a lover in the past who took me to court. For a lie that she said that was far from short. But in the end I was the one mature. I could've ruined her life all the way for sure [Verse 3: Kaysinners] Now I take it with ease. While feeling the breeze. Feeling the wind blowing up in my tee. I'm paying the fees for thoughts that I ain't leave. If you doubt me just know I have the keys. It's by my knees.Uh didn't you see? My rhymes can also be cold and I freeze. Like mr.freeze until you're a tree. I'll stay in water cause I'm from the seas. With the eyes of a Vietnamese. I'm never here cause I wanted to leave. See it inside in my thoughts and my dreams. My life is a tease, with girls that ain't leave. Filled with folks faker than some weaves. With people always envying me . With people just hating on me. And always lying to me [Verse 4: Kaysinners] So gimme a break. Gimme a girl in my life for my sake. Gimme some friends that always relate and gimme some love that will never be late.Past thoughts everywhere, every day. Gimme some potions to take em away. Gimme less lying, less crying, less denying and more trying . kaysinners , kaysinners