Kawann Shockley - Bastard Child lyrics

Chorus: Sometimes I just wanna run away To a place very far inside Sometimes I just wanna run away But I just can't run (*echoes*), and hide (*echoes*) ‘cause I'm a ba*tard child I'm the one they pa**ed around Said I'm a ba*tard child I'm the one they laughed and clowned Verse 1: Yes my pops was a s**m donor His name was John but I've never heard further Oh his other name's Carl Overstreet And somehow his seeds reached mom's ovaries He must have had an excellent level of potency Because my focus be amazing with the poetry Supposedly him and my mom met at Job Corps She never said what he applied to get a job for Was he a gentleman or maybe some kinda who*e? But these are questions my mother's not alive for That's why I pour misery into these symphonies Until he get at me I'm literally a mystery Part of my history does not exist to me The part where Ms. Denise meets Mr. Street So I skip a beat (*record skips*) to spit to beats So goodnight Mr. Street, beats rock me to sleep Chorus: ‘Cause I'm a ba*tard child I'm the one they pa**ed around Said I'm a ba*tard child I'm the one they laughed and clowned Sometimes I just wanna run away To a place very far inside Sometimes I just wanna run away But I just can't run (*echoes*), and hide (*echoes*) Verse 2: My mom thought about abortin' me It ain't her fault, she just didn't wanna torture me She thought it'd be difficult without a dad ‘cause She was short of cash plus God don't like ba*tards Well she was right about the first part We were dirt poor from the hood in the worst parts She worked hard ‘cause she would not accept that I remember she brought me my first stepdad Bein' up in his apartment we slept at He treated me like his son and I respect that He wasn't perfect, he drank Thunderbird and O.E. so he staggerin' and swervin' Now he missin' work and him and mom cursin' And then my mom's blurtin', “with him it's not workin'” But what about me mom? Don't I deserve him? I guess this how it works then Chorus: ‘Cause I'm a ba*tard child I'm the one they pa**ed around Said I'm a ba*tard child I'm the one they laughed and clowned Verse 3: Yes it's me the ba*tard Everything I achieved, every book that I mastered Even if I went to Yale and got my Masters It still wouldn't matter, I'd still be a ba*tard But that's now a badge that I wear in disasters You cannot defeat me or beat me so laugh ‘cause your laughter is fuel you fool You only help me up If I can overcome my pops you can't tell me much I'm from the hood, you know what the news telling us? Telling us lies deprived and cops jailing us Gunshots, some die and lie belly-up Can anything good come from Philadelphia? Tell ya what, I am the answer to that It's like I be walkin' on water when I rap on a track And the devil ain't got a answer for that Now tell me, what kind of ba*tard is that? Chorus: Sometimes I just wanna run away (sometimes I) To a place very far inside (sometimes I wanna leave, ya know?) Sometimes I just wanna run away (wish I could) But I just can't run (I can't), and hide (I can't hide, ya know?) Sometimes I just wanna run away (sometimes I wanna flee, ya know?) To a place very far inside (I try to go deep within) Sometimes I just wanna run away (but you know what?) But I just can't run (I can't run), and hide (that's me) (*Dr. Cornel West gives props to O'hene*)