Kate Tempest - Grubby lyrics

[Intro] Up the stairwell Chip fat grey, and London green with damp Out on the fifth floor, where the wind grips your jaw And holds you in its clamp There's a red door, bordered by mottled gla** And inside, a lighted lamp Pius live here Pius is tired, but can't sleep, she twitches, wired She lies beside a sleeping body, a girl she barely knows She met her in the pub, and it went the way it goes, the girl's name is Rose But Pius is lovesick for her Thorne She left her in the Summer And since then, Pius can't get warm She's carried her stuck in her side since the day that she was born She dreamed of her and knew her shape long before she saw her form Well, it's 04:18 And Pius has been staring at the blinds for hours She tells herself it's all her fault She doesn't love, she just devours [Verse 1] Can't sleep, so much to do Tryna get closer to you, and you're so far away Tryna get hold of what's true, and what's true isn't true when it's day Tell me, how can I sleep? Got so much to do I'm trying to get closer to you, and you're so far away All that I say and I do are things that you do and you say How come I'm becoming the one that I'm running from? Hunted by, slurring my words in the pub, feeling nervous and overexcited Arms 'round the waist of a girl who might make it alright for a night Yeah, she takes me to places, then I lie beside of her, wake while she sleeps And I feel much closer to you than I felt When you were still here, spill beer till you reappear [Hook] I'm thinking of you And the things you do to me I'm thinking of you And the things you do to me [Verse 2] Pain in my liver, okay, shame So much shame, can't bear my frame, can't bear your name, okay Can't bear this game, let's play, new rules, old rituals Guilt trip, heartstrings snap, want to, can't go back, too much Not enough, I can't get your claws out my gut [Hook] I'm thinking of you And the things you do to me I'm thinking of you And the things you do to me [Verse 3] This is my mind, get out of it You didn't want it, how come you're still hanging around in it? This is my body, let go of it You didn't want it, how come you're still f**ing controlling it? This is my night, get lost in it This is my bridge, stop crossing it This is my face, stop smiling This is my space, you've been gone so long How come I still find you hiding? Fighting me, I'm fighting my darkest parts I'm fighting nighatmres tied to my hands 'round my own throat 'Cause you're the snake charmer and I'm the old rope No hope, just go, now, please just leave Still in the air that I breathe, I'm stranded Arms outstretched from my body, anybody Here's a body, but I wake up and I can't stand them I feel so grubby Don't want, can't stop, just love me Breath like a cigarette stubbed in the gutter Come close, no, wait, don't touch me, I'm ugly Pushing for a phonecall, beep beep Looking through names for the one that feels most dangerous I can't believe you're in love again I can't open my heart to anybody but strangers [Hook] I'm thinking of you And the things you do to me I'm thinking of you And the things you do to me [Hook] I'm thinking of you And the things you do to me I'm thinking of you And the things you do to me