Kaan - L.T.N. lyrics

[Hook] Yes, lawd Growing up they used to tell me I was strange I remember growing up they used to say that I was strange That's cause I kept to myself and I would never say a thang I remember growing up them n***as said that I was strange That's cause I kept to myself while playing Kurt Cobain I remember growing up them n***as said that I was strange That's cause I kept to myself while playing Kurt Cobain [Verse 1] Tell me what you really know 'bout been so f**in depressed That you ain't left the house in months, a**uming you're mentally done I got a razor blade inside and I just silence my insanity The voices in my mother f**in' head they keep on callin' me No seriously, every time I wake up in the mother f**in' morning I am lookin' for the exit Exit this, the testament, to rectify supply but I would've never sufficed I read a couple different words from the bible and decided with a n***a believin' defeat is the purpose of livin' Now let me give you my story the moment you give the feelin' I'm feelin' for real Don't k** my angst I can't be a mother f**er that's giving you positive records to make 'em think that they really got a chance When it's all down hill I can tell ya how it is f** friends When you needin' the people that disappear I hear n***as talk, but what you really sayin' The cadence at which I k** it Debating if I'm the realest Revealing that I'm a monster, molestin' the beat I beseech you a piece and I promise it'll be- Relatable to the point that's not debatable Giving you agony, pain is evadable Very important to show you I'm capable Came with a bottle of anti-depressants I'm praying the problem is that I'm not patient I'm pacing and wondering Talking to Christ And I'm crying for help, I can't do it myself I'm in love with the vice and destroying my life I don't have any character, ain't it embarra**ing? Give me some medicine, then I abuse it Stuck in a rut and I don't give a f** If I live or I die to reside in the sky What's the point? I thought that I was supposed to peek Intrest, unrest, not bless, don't rest, don't test No, I would never try to make a f**in' fallacy I guarantee you'll never hear a song about a fantasy A vanity Reality is the only place that I would ever really wanna live In a fake a** world You wanted money and women Depending if it's a mean to an end Now you're fed Cause I wanna be alone Refuse to waste time and I work at a pace at which we can keep I need a moment to gather the sickest energy sentimentally up and sedate it I pray that I can make it My heart keeps breakin' Why do I feel vacant inside of me? Verbal abuse and a case of anxiety Lack of financial stability This is the recipe for my soliloquy Cynically sayin' a word to Jehovah Supposed to be honest Come pa** the composure for closure I'm poppin' up, prefer to hurt And I don't think it work so I'll wait and I'll master the pain [Hook] All them stupid n***as used to tell me I was strange That's cause I kept to myself while playing Curt Kobain I remember growing up them n***as said that I was strange That's cause I kept to myself while playing Curt Kobain n***a, daym! [Bridge] Look, I was alone So isolated from people that I cannot see what is real I was alone So isolated from people but I cannot feel through the pill I was alone So isolated from people but I cannot see what is real I was alone So isolated from people but I cannot see what is real [Verse 2] I am alone, so isolated from people that I cannot see what is real And I feel like I finally found the foundation of sympathy Can I get some of your love with no judgin'? The sound is improving the sentence So pungent, disgusting They think that we made it but that's an illusion Created inside of our basement Just me and my n***a We workin', for certain I hope we accomplish it Never go down with a case of complacency Keepin' the cadence of mine We combine in a kind of a law For the few connoisseurs or the lyrically spiritual I am attempting to take you to places of peace And that was for your soul If I'm out of control I can sew with a knee-riding temperament Telling the truth I'm severely sensitive Insecure memoirs of secrets inside of me Asking why I wanna die I'm detesting the lie And I'm remnant in all of society Simple to see that they prefer to indulge I prefer being pa**ive Detering the falsehood I'm taking the fault and I fall with the force of a heavyweight champion Channelling all of his pain I provide it the point I'm ready to leave I no longer deceive like the rest of them Constantly wrestling with an idea then I start to imagine it I'm aggravated, evading the question The question I have is irrelevant Seldomly different Distant, depressed and I'm speaking But no one is listening I'll fade away and just cease to exist I'm no longer determined I know that I'm worthless Lawd!