Kaan - I.F.L.D (PROD. ORBT) lyrics

STRESS KNOWLEDGE "Lately i been looking for myself Im just trying to find some happiness wish i never lost my innocence in the middle of a sicker struggle Im dependent on a different feeling i can only find it with a milligram and ima need some more for my tolerance and thats way higher than my confidence Became introverted and dont speak and i can't sleep i been so stressed. what if the plan do not pan out all the time that im putting in Wasted energy upon the dream and i can feel the fate as i begin to flow and i have been sedated for a couple months cause i am too depressed about a lot of sh** Life ain't going like i thought it would. realizing im a lost cause, pray to god that i can find some peace i need the recipe you know the formula to get a normal life I stay isolated can't trust a soul i don't feel love its like the only ones that ever cared about me these different d** so i choose to use them i mixed them up I need variety and im an outcast of this society with no 3 stacks and no Looshaus lair just loose morals and a ton of pain Platency that i can never change start the fire Ima let it burn feeling low i know i need help Headed to a safe place, can you relate to my predicament? Im in vicious cycle but it never ends i might get clean for like a few days But Its a constant struggle i need strength, i dont have faith, and im insecure a self conscious man that feels agony i can't feel the void in my f**in heart But im terrified and im paranoid, i know i had the choice of positivity and my potential was a promiscuity but realistically I am a weaker person persecute the soul i execute the purpose of my self destruction i don't have a conscious in a constant battle But its mentally I need to find a better outlet lost in the dark space damn! LAWD Talking about the pain that i repress I'm in mutual relationships everyday, and I've been living straight by addiction but they can not understand the reason why i do it. i am feeling like everyone else is against me i carry a chip on my shoulder as long that's holding my head to the ground but im lower than ever It never gets better i bet they maintain Im the Perfect example of wasted potential Not to mention all of my opportunity's are pa**ing, can not commit to sobriety prior to pardon my etiquette, we make it darker to see what the message is affirmations alegated repetitive pacing myself on the why can't I and i do it, i come for oblivion im covering agony Masterpiece that was inspired by Misery living my life and i live for a muse, focusing something i like at the the moment Im vulnerable i am a loner insisting i see what it is, i get the sense that these people are fake, im disconnected I have No emotions I'm heartless I've started to realize there is no hope. I am inspired by nothing i notice the smoke in the mirror's the sight of the sober The flight that im on it was artificial, disappear into disparity , and everything that we are given is realistic its depicted inside of my mind the minute i think half of my thoughts im moving on salutations from a better bond I do not feel like the person i was or i used to be i know my purpose is gone, pray that i can become mentally strong im holding on but i know that im finished Empty inside man i need to replenish, i said that i'll quit but im back on that sh** and i sit by myself feeling disappointing but its really pointed that im pointed out Conversations with nobody else, at my lowest i sincerely know it i'm a lotus flower in the concrete Dirty pedals and a crooked stem but when i needed friends Man i could never find em so i find my reality when i hallucinate, losing myself i can not get a grip of my self esteem man that no longer exist