Ka-Flame - 05.Form of Affliction lyrics

[Intro:] 2'Pac speaks about the unseen talent we as artist put behind our craft... [Hook-2x:] (I swear) sometimes I be thinking - How I deal with this sh**!?/ 21 years - How I live with this sh**!?/ Can't imagine how it feel - To get a mill in this b**h!/ Vowed to keep it treal - This as real as it gets/... [1st Verse:] I remember writing rhymes - I wasn't even trying to flex/ I was rhyming bout them diamonds - That was shinning round my neck/ Hell yea - I was grinding - mind on Trying to get a check/ Spending time - writing lines - Getting mine - thats a bet!/ Never signed - but its fine - I wasn't trying to be the best!/ In my mind - with my grind - I was bound to be a vet!/ Take em' back to 99' You would find me in the jects'/ Talking Mt.Zion - We're designed to be a threat/ You think a n***a lying? - til that iron - Get to firing at ya set!/ n***a's dying - b**hes crying - No denying - its a mess/ Toting nines - with a vest - Doing crimes - for the stress/ For a dime sack - they might just - Shoot your spine - through ya chest/ "I was blind - got finessed" - Now I'm smarter than I was/ A underground King - Cause its hard to go above/ Cause they drowning out my sounds - In a town full of haters/ Use to show them love - Now I'm fresh all out of favors/... [Hook-2x:] (I swear) sometimes I be thinking - How I deal with this sh**?/ 21 years - How I live with this sh**?!/ Can't imagine how it feel - To get a mill in this b**h!/ Vowed to keep it treal - This as real as it gets/... [2nd Verse:] They'll never take me alive - I will survive - got that 4'5 loaded/ So therefore I gotta tote it - Devoted to the cause - Even though they hope I fall/ Its still motherf** them' I'm exposing all the flaws/ Dick riding hoes - They be all up on my balls/ All because - I'm prevailing - As I'm yelling f** the laws/ If it wasn't for my dogs - In the hood - falling through/ Telling me - that they can really see - The good in all I do/ I tell them that I'm trying - Been a lot of nights of crying/ Dealing with the pain - In my veins - all the time/ I be bout to lose my mind - Thats a sign of insanity!/ What else could I do? - Can't even trust my own family!/ Felt like they Abandoned me - And left me here to die!/ So you know ain't the ONE - They expect to be alive/ Still be setting sh** on fire - With the albums I release/ If I wasn't rapping - I would never - Have No Peace/... [Hook-2x:] (I swear) sometimes I be thinking - How I deal with this sh**?/ 21 years - How I live with this sh**?!/ Can't imagine how it feel - To get a mill in this b**h!/ Vowed to keep it treal - This as real as it gets/... [Goes off:] 2Pac speaks again about the "time and talent" us musicians put into our art form and how it has an impact on the lives of others...