K-Z.Row - Distant Flickering lyrics

(Verse 1) - K-Z.Row Looking up to the stars, it reminds me of my momma If you can hear me Vanessa Cardozo I'ma be with you soon, I promise But I got options, so many sins I've committed Not sure if I'm forgiven God am I? Did d**, sagged my pants like the thugs in the slums Pull the trigger, "f**, who died?" Gang signs thrown up, Kush rolled up you don't expect me to be so Drive-bys pull up the the side of your vehicle, shots from uzis and pistols sh**, I wish that shooting stars made wishes come true Last time I wished that I could be with you But instead I was left with another, younger you She cares for me like you did, she's there for me like you were Sometimes I feel your presence near me especially when I'm with her I've been thinking 'bout the good days, now I regret the days you got hurt Cause of me, a f**ing spoiled brat who wanted everything except your love I just never realized how much you loved me as a son (Verse 2) - Kyle Aiden Mc Mahon Looking up to the stars, hoping one day I make it to a better place All the burdens in my life try to chain me down but When I leave this Earth, pray to God I levitate I'm a born, raised sinner, people saying that I'll never make It even half way to Heaven's gates Too much past for a future, they judge me And sometimes I feel like I should just get away Imma be okay, don't care what you say Say what you want but its true, people change So many n***as hate Yeah I sin but I got a lot of love so I'll make it afterlife Inspired by Aaron Yates Barely even medicate, I'm still getting lifted Peer pressure hardly phases me, I've built up a resistance Still drink and smoke but one day that might be different So when I fall six feet, hope there's a flicker in the distance (Verse 3) - The Mental Mr E Hello dad are you there? When you left you had no care Are you thinking about me cause I'm thinking about you That's why I wanted to write this prayer You weren't gone that long but it feels like an eternity Everyday I reminisce, I wish that you were here with me Brother's cold. mama's stressed, no one to shed a tear with me I just don't want you living on only in my memory You talking to me. I actually miss it Died December 4th 2012. No family Christmas You're the driving force behind this verse I would have never spit this I used to dream of joining you, arriving with my wrists slit But then I start to contemplate My brain begins to think of things you would say Get teary eyed but I can't cry these days So I'll settle for being mental that's why it's in my name