K. Hanson - Chin Up lyrics

[Verse 1:] Lately, I don't have the audacity The right mind state or the mental capacity To deal with this life and the sh** that it's cast at me Lotta stress but I guess that's the way that it has to be My peers lash at me, gawk and laugh at me Even when my girl cracks a joke it smashes me sh** has broken me down to the point I'm attached to the Sadness that's crafted me depression thats grasps me I don't wanna be happy, I like the dark I'll just wallow in my problems, this life is harsh If I self-harm I'll just hide the scars They're nothing compared to the ones inside my heart I've battled demons, hara**in screamin They tell me to chin up but I don't have the reason I'd rather die and I have to leave this Battlefield called life, I've been smashed to pieces [Hook:] They tell me to chin up, so I put my chin up Put the gun under it I just wanna give up I've set my expactations and I can't live up I've fallen on the concrete I don't wanna get up My heads dragging on the ground don't wanna pick the sh** up This depression on my chest just won't let up Lately I've been thinking I shoud pick a cigarette up This life is just too much and I'm so fed up [Verse 2:] This life takes my breath away, hacking and choking Happily soaking in my own pool of self-loathing It's dripping from my body and it's dripping from my clothing Spreading and growing no wonder they're scolding They see what I'm molding into's approaching My back slopes I'm a ghost and I walk around moaping But they don't see my heart and the pain I'm holding They don't wanna feel my pain so the world's opposing The mindstate I'm living in now is deadly I wanna k** myself but the world won't let me But I know if I did everyone would forget me Sooner or later and then they'd just regret me They just upset me they won't respect me They hate to see the good so they just neglect me They're wrongful opinions have officially wrecked me This feeling of loneliness has now possessed me [Hook] [Verse 3:] Wake up in the middle of the night in a panic Sweating and crying as always cause I'm manic Depressive, yet it feels so organic It explodes and corrodes cause it's so volcanic Living in this f** life mindstate is dangerous You can smell the scent of suicide it's so vaprous I picture thoughts of suicide they're so heinous I go through this sh** on a daily basis Look at my heart can you see the blemishes You can tell by the negative energy in the premesis And as soon as I'm happy the sadness replenishes They tell me I got problems and they put me on medicine And these dark thoughts pop in my head again They try to get inside my mind but I won't let em in Because in a strange way I'm happy in the mindset I'm in That's why I'm isolated and I'll probably never get a friend [Hook]