Justin Pines - The Influence of Mr.Muthaf**in eXquire lyrics

Addiction a common theme in life Something's gotta give and if your not pulling a trigger Your not that n***a Dreams this weed doesn't make you enlightened I've been drinkin and smokin so much I forgot why I f**in do it Everyone knows about the s**ual addiction but it's just for her My comments are honest Hooked on phonics or products Overlooked by the government But a suspect of cops The inner thoughts of a suburb nerd Pour some beer on the curb for those who have fallen Those who don't remain leave stains on your soul Real n***a symphony The epitome of pa**ion If you knew how s**ual I am it would be scary These scars I bare these Scars we hope cars will make us forget A version of a virgin who imagines himself a p**nstar Am I an addict? Tragic ratchet my tactics to let you know quiet If a girl a bad b**h go and make your dad rich We want girls to be like heaven Crack babies who relapse when their seven I'm suicidal My rivals see me as an idle plaything Pay to hear a gimmick Sir was that a diss? Eh I hate you way more than I dislike myself I'll teach my kids to be better Understand their flaws and hope they don't receive mine What'll happen if they ask to see their grandfather and their dad's a drug addict? See that's when a bottle becomes a role model And the mom will carry a flask to mask her pain True love that has a stain Marriage is terrifying Not cause of fear of commitment Murder of the love Cupid doesn't like to be chained by a ring or a rule book Like a song doesn't become an anthem because of a cool hook Often I imagine my coffin I don't want to put bad thoughts into the universe I can't reimburse my mistakes in a hearse Smoked this weed and drank 3 of these bottles And who did it help? I'm dealing with lack of esteem in myself When will I see the signs? And even then I'll have to read between the lines Sad we have to go through all of this Considering how the world is so beautiful Or how women are angels and get f**ed over by a**holes In religion angels and demons fight Here they f** I think some of us are sniffing glue I never tried molly Saw some pictures on Facebook with kids who rap holding AKs and other sh** I was scared Unprepared for the real world Me,Jon,Mikel,nonsense and Anthony gonna f** around and become the new Central Park five It will be a miracle if my tarot card reads when I'm fifty I'll be dark and alive But the idea of riches is delicious Need some p**y heard it's nutritous My dick is despicable Words of a criminal Everyday struggle I just want to live But Life is freedom and this isn't that This pressure Pressure to lead need letters of greed Money gonna lead to a motherf**er putting two shots through my chest on the train Tried to be my best in vain Leave my two moms crying You think I'm dying? In fact f** this d**h is a meth who*e who got g**ned so many times it's sore Live under the lie less is more Tell me to play hoops or shoot Gotta get the loot I'll be the first ten foot tall prostitute Bout to be homeless but f** it I own this Popped some pills Made me throw up pa**ed out but woke up fine no stomach pump Maybe if the institutions had been honest about it This sh** wouldn't be so bad This is your brain on d** b**h this is your brain after the slugs I might not make it can't take it Wake up scared, scarred and naked Smoke by where Paul was raped People still haven't accepted there's no such thing as safe Happened not too far from his house blood coming out his mouth Punk a** failed abortion tried to have me jumped Accidents don't happen Hope my rappin is one day in your speakers The bullets we're saving for the leaders Got rid of the Black Panther Party Taking a little longer with the Ku Klux Klan Just see me as a n***a How do you feel about the fact I'm gonna f** your daughter? Remember at my Aunt's house Damnit I can't take thinking of all these memories with dead people Some of you think we were bred to be evil I swear for some of us these tablets are like magnets Some do it to cope with depression Sticks and stones may break my bones but words make n***as commit suicide I'll survive to honor their memory But we all have ropes around our throats Metaphorical and literal Justify your life You have a bunch of routes and possibly more doubts Don't sell your soul out Addiction doesn't define me if this k**s me fine but b**h you won't own me And this is an everyday struggle But I won't live in your bubble I'll always be me