Love is everywhere i'm not allowed. I feel he's been to hell, but he's near to heaven now. I need to see it. i can't not have it, so inscrutable, so beautiful. I try. i try. i try. His head is i don't know. i'm stuck outside again. Can't get in. i can't move him. I think i like it because it hurts to not know, pain is so. I tried. i tried. i tried.