Julian Holiday - Never Tried lyrics

[Intro] Just know the guy who's writing this is not myself I tried to pry the f**in pride from me, it didn't help Just know the guy who's writing this is not myself I tried to cry and feel some pain but it didn't help Explain to me why every day faithfully Recreates the one that i saw yesterday, it seems Im stuck in a time loop that i can't leave Sit staring out lookin at the branched trees Keepin this secret that im afraid'll get out That i ain't been doing school, im afraid to get out My mom explaining to me that leavin will f**in crush me But crushing is all that school does for me, its nothing Listen to my situation Im sick of sittin here, dreaming, thinkin and complaining That i ain't got a friend and no b**h on my dick But then i leave the house and feel my chest cavin in So imagine the most embarra**ed you've felt The put that in perspective as a constant in your hell That's what school does for me, and lovingly they come to see Im held the f** back for being a f**in dummy [Hook] And they never really saw it from my side I dont think that they tried Im not illiterate, im writing this sh** here But i count up change and remember a sh** year Of sittin in the cla** trying to figure out the sh** But never really ever getting out of it So, consider this a permanent holiday Cause i can't f**in find a friend and i can't even read a page At this point, i dont think that it bugs me Im envied by these kids who think its cool to a dumb freak I can't even pinpoint what's so jarring Have you ever sat down and made sure you're not retarded? I sure as f** have, the principal, that dumb a** Put me with some b**h with f**in braces like she'll help pa** She can't cure a crippling sickness So f** it, im livin simple, no friends and no b**hes I just stay inside and ignore the fact that im alive Praying the (?) will never knock or even hear this vibe