Judo Arigato - Downers (prod. J. Arigato) lyrics

I told myself i wouldn't write a song on that hurt sh**/ About that dirt sh**, let it go at the end of the show wouldn't open close curtains/ I been burnt since like a broad that done left her perm in/ Way too long i do push ups i ain't too strong i been flirtin/ With purple haze and its too strong, adderall been up too long/ We used to lay on that futon argue back and forth about who wrong/ When we spilt, you still let me hit whenever your dude gone/ Like i own that never thought that you could just move on/ From them late nights, great nights sparks sent from them fake fights/ Shark n***as them great whites tryna take mines betta think twice/ But I mustve been mistaken about my lover missy/ I ain't perfect but did you have to f** with my brother/ Like of n***as why him, was the dick good did it even slide in/ I ain't f** good so youd rather ride him, i look just like'em man you f**in my twin/ And im stuck sittin with a f**in violin/ Tell a joke and use my stories as your punchline i got sunshine in a bag thats good for one time for the one time i got one line/ I told myself i wouldn't write a song on that hurt sh**/ About that dirt sh**, about big bro and how all of my life i looked at you as perfect/ I mean, like i was so certain you were the image of what i was searching/ To become but you ain't the same person, now you ain't worth sh**/ Im still hurting and some nights i dont get no sleep/ Im still worthless i been outside in the street/ Vegetable merchant i made lettuce of of them beats/ Almost certain thats why you dont f** with me like what did i did/ How am i wrong by continuing something that both of us started/ You should be happy im k**ing these rappers lets all bow our heads for the dearly departed/ You never listened since i started sh**ting maybe i was better off holding it in/ Lets face it im cancer on beats and since when has a n***a just k**ing sh** ever been sin/ Im on my knees again like hey my lord its me again/ Constant coversations with Gods i been stopped believin in/ How you want me throwing towels and expect for me to win/ All this work in vain (vein) how long till i start stickin needles in/ Im on d** now, im on d** now and they help me make these beats/ Imma be better youll finally listen ill finally be able to get to sleep/ Maybe whenever i call you would silence the ringing instead of the sound of the beep/ And tell me your proud of my progress and hope i get better all that sh** you say in my dreams/ And in my dreams I'll wear a crown they'll call me king/ I'll talk my sh** I'll build my team and be that/ Mogul on the screen but until that time/ Tell a joke and use my stories as your punchline/ I've got sunshine in a bag that's good for one time for the one time/ I've got one line like/