JS aka The Best - Fire & Ice lyrics

[Verse 1] Hit the weight room to release my stress Benching 255 off of my chest I see a little lump on my arm Might as well go to the doctor, it can't do no harm He said it was a sys it ain't nothing serious We can do surgery today if you curious Cool, they take me down to surgery In my mind i had no worries They took it out and put in a cup A week goes by, and im back for my follow up Walked into the room and it felt a little colder Doc showed me his folder and put his hand on my shoulder We might have found something Soon as he said that why my heart started thumping You only got about a month to live for sure You been diagnosed with HIV and cancer [Chorus] Fire & Ice I'm tired of living this life Coulda been the greatest, but at what price Fire & Ice, Fire & Ice You build me up, to break me down Another soul that's about to breakdown Fire & Ice, Fire & Ice [Verse 2] Leave a man alone in a room with his thoughts These voices in my head got me talkin to myself Going f**in crazy talkin to myself Never thought at 20 i would die like this As the night gets colder, i can feel the abyss Lookin at the stiches where they removed the sys My blood results were fine right before they did this sh** The plot thickens, the clocks ticking Suicide is tempting Don't know what to do f** it i grabbed the lil .22 Aimed it at my head Holding on by a thread My knees hit the floor f** it I dont wanna live no more [Skit] Hi this is Dr. Jones, I was just calling to tell you that you are absolutely fine. You have been misdiagnosed. We have accidentally switched your paperwork with another patient and you are absolutely fine. I am so sorry to have put you through this. But it was a mistake you are fine, it was a misdiagnoses [Chorus] Fire & Ice I'm tired of living this life Coulda been the greatest, but at what price Fire & Ice, Fire & Ice You build me up, to break me down Another soul that's about to breakdown Fire & Ice, Fire & Ice [Verse 3] Feel better but I need a 2nd opinion The other doctors said im good, i ain't got no condition This was just a wake up call Felt good until i got the next phone call Damn my n***a James died Couldn't hold back the waterfalls as I cried Damn cancer is a b**h Seem like we was just at roose joaning and sh** Damn that coulda been me Tomorrow ain't guaranteed So whats next honestly I dont know Just gotta deal with the status quo Life goes on, you deal with the pain The pain that things will never be the same Life goes on, you deal with the pain The pain that things will never be the same