Joy Ride (NJ) - Climbing a Mountain lyrics

I scream out as the door slams shut and The house is burning down tonight cause The sleep full days of nightmares k** me Through the sleepless nights of agony so Why is it that when I look in the mirror I see? Everything I don't wanna be she hates me And I can't breathe I'm falling so fast that you can't save me Sometimes I drink myself to sleep Knowing you're not around and Somehow I can not breathe I'm choking on these lies and it's never gonna mean it So tell me that everything's okay I'm crazy and its never gonna mean it So tell me that I'm okay Cause I'm climbing a mountain just to jump right off the edge Could someone stop this bleeding tonight because the blade of your words attack me mentally I'll read your eyes they'll tell me your lies and it takes me on a trip to insanity and I can't stand this self-medication My mind is set on exaggeration Cause I just can't stick around this time Why is there smoke in the room when I didn't light a cigarette? Sometimes I drink myself to sleep Knowing you're not around and Somehow I can not breathe I'm choking on these lies and it's never gonna mean it So tell me that everything's okay I'm crazy and its never gonna mean it So tell me that I'm okay Cause I'm climbing a mountain just to jump right off the edge Will be here when the smoke is clear? I'm dependent on something that was never there You be the Queen and I'll be your slave Cause I'm living in a fairytale and dreams never do come true Sometimes I drink myself to sleep Knowing you're not around and Somehow I can not breathe I'm choking on these lies and it's never gonna mean it So tell me that everything's okay I'm crazy and its never gonna mean it So tell me that I'm okay Cause I'm climbing a mountain just to jump right off the edge