Joseph Arthur - Ashes Everywhere lyrics

I'll be silent in my solitude Can't find my smile or my gratitude I'm afraid of what i might do 'cause there's no me If there's no me and you I wish that i could open up your eyes To feel the sun that burned in your mind I can't deal with what you have done Reincarnate i wonder who i might become With the potential of a loaded gun I could be as fresh as hard bubble gum I don't have nothing, now i want me some First some of you, then some of everyone Oh darling since you've been away from me I know how the pins feel in the bowling alley They say love is something you feel but never see When i see you i firmly disagree I'm just trying to be all that i can be Without destroying you Or joining the army Your ashes must be blowing everywhere 'cause i could still feel you and you're nowhere near And though you didn't say so i can tell that you still care We could've had it all but then nothing is fair I still think about washing your hair I wish i could've washed away all of your despair