well im trying to find a better way well im trying to find a way to explain but i cant explain why ive been feeling nothing and lately my head's been quite a mess and my exsistence seems rather pointless but i know if i give it a chance it'll be fine still everything is disappointing and life's lessons all take too long and im defensive and senseless all the rest is numb well im trying to get my (self) a** outta bed but its so hard when theres no sunshine overhead because ive been living in a basement with green carpet guess thats what i get still everything is disappointing and lifes lessons all take too long well im defensive and senseless all the rest is numb ba da ba ba ba da ba.....ect