Jordan Vella - GAD lyrics

hi I have an anxiety disorder and just to make this crystal clear, it isn't the bullsh** you see on the Internet no, it's not the feeling in your stomach when you're about to perform in cla** it definitely isn't your hands shaking before you see your crush and it is definitely not the loss of breath after you run no it's 2am panic attacks when your body shakes and sweats when you can't even talk because to push out words is too hard it's the weird looks people give you when you're sitting on the bathroom floor during 3rd period it's the inability to talk about certain subjects without your brain going into overdrive no, it's not the f**ing stuff you see on Twitter or tumblr it's scary, it's every f**ing fear you've ever had combined it's not being able to control your thoughts so you spiral down down down you're at the darkest point until you can't even really see the light anymore it's dark, cold, and lonely. and when you reach the point when people start saying you're faking it, that's the scariest part. you're f**ing terrified and alone and you can't get out of this hole you accidentally dragged your self into. they say it's your fault and you blame yourself because deep down you know it is. your mind slipped and fell you did this. and you hate yourself for it.