i want to feel calm determination in a hoody i want to seem outwardly, the way i feel inwardly after a cup of coffee or a ‘good nights sleep' i want to swallow a blue sky and exhale slowly, at ground level i want to expand quietly together at a steady, familiar pace we can absorb stars and small birds and internets with a diet of dumpstered donuts and american spirits and iced soy lattes we can dismantle our 'inner selves' and lie down in soft gra** gently together