The doctors told him, he'd be gone by now His lungs full of blankets Burnt, black, and brown He buried his family in the back yard Flooded the basement, filled it up with tar We borrowed their old clothes, and then we undressed We stole a trampoline, and made it our mattress And slept with all the house lights on Waiting for them to come home And slept with all the house lights off Waiting for them to come home We said it's so much easier to believe in nothing It's so easy to wait impatiently to die He pulled his pants around his ankles And he showed me all the places he went purple Because he held too hard, his own skin Because no one else touch him And I mothered him, beastly And we shared our severed head dreams And I held him where the sickness was And I nursed him through the night And I nursed him through the night And we stayed that way all night