Jonny Conway - Agoraphobia lyrics

[Verse 1: Ill-Noize] sh** been gettin' personal now... I been steady watching out the window Too afraid to leave the house... 'Cause it's the middle of the Summer & the birds are flyin' south, Wild West is callin' out! It's been teasin' me for years, whisper softly in my ears, knowing I don't know the route Or that I'll panic & cop out before I wade my way through waves of f**ing crowds... I don't deal with people too well Asking for help is like a personal Hell Headphones in, hoodie up With my hands in my pockets But I know to stay alert when I'm walkin' People shady so I stay with a blade Nothing big, just enough to leave a message Wake up everyday count my blessings But I'd rather stay inside Than get caught in intersections While the kids up in my city livin' reckless... I'ma hide away... [Hook: Ill-Noize] Looking for Gold, but all I find is sh**... In a City filled with crime & violence That's all they show on the News on TV When I look at the screen, man I hate what I see So I turn it off quickly, & I turn my speakers up With a pad, & a pen, & my mac, & a blunt, uhh Just close the blinds, I've been livin' like a recluse Leave me behind, to keep livin' like a recluse... & lately I don't want to leave my room I been livin' on the edge Sort of scared what I might do I'm finna snap like your neck if you testin' me I'm trying not to let this cold world get the best of me, So I... Sit inside & write for days & days Only to hate all the words, so I burn the pages Just close the blinds, I've been livin' like a recluse Leave me behind, to keep livin' like a recluse... [Verse 2: Ill-Noize] 6 brews in... still at the crib... Finally a day off... what a f**in' life I live... & it's, been like 3 weeks since we last f**ed Why don't, you come over let me bust my nut Light up a blunt Put a movie on & let you pa** out Wake up alone hours later Guess you let yourself out Why I always gotta stress myself out? Overthink everything, or is it just a dream? Can't separate reality from my escape But it keeps taking more to get high... My tolerance gets higher But my patience gets shorter Sick of the world's lies, segregation & borders & the way people look at me like I'm an outcast, but I do everything I can to outlast... [Hook: Ill-Noize] Looking for Gold, but all I find is sh**... In a City filled with crime & violence That's all they show on the News on TV When I look at the screen, man I hate what I see So I turn it off quickly, & I turn my speakers up With a pad, & a pen, & my mac, & a blunt, uhh Just close the blinds, I've been livin' like a recluse Leave me behind, to keep livin' like a recluse... & lately I don't want to leave my room I been livin' on the edge Sort of scared what I might do I'm finna snap like your neck if you testin' me I'm trying not to let this cold world get the best of me, So I... Sit inside & write for days & days Only to hate all the words, so I burn the pages Just close the blinds, I've been livin' like a recluse Leave me behind, to keep livin' like a recluse...