Jonathan Lowell - Nouveau Conception lyrics

Bang [Verse 1] Sometimes, I wanna be at peace I don't understand why we need to breathe Why we need to eat, build & retreat Steel creeping up on my cheek Sometimes I wanna let go of it all And let it fade, but I'd drop the ball Too much to do, too much to say The edges of my sanity frayed Pull the trigger, my dreams fall My castle breaks, my knees stumble Let me know if you need a call I know how it feels to be deep under Blood on my hands from past problems Take that sh** right past talking I don't give a f**, but I used to, n***a So talk that sh** with max caution I'm heaven-blessed but I'm hellbound My dreams reality melt now I saw the future, I held the crown In a flurry of shots, was dealt down My n***a scored 25 to life For taking my light, that sh** ain't right Just goes to show you can't trust n***as My words paint a robust picture So hopefully you don't brush 'em off Just understand you are who you are Don't let nobody tell you otherwise That's why I don't f** with them other guys My style & me go way back My verses are curses, my presence a blessing My blades cut through your wavecap I call this sh** the Nouveau Conception [Hook] My heart blazin', my brain glazed in the arctic ices of dark places Brand my sound up in your mind [x3] [Verse 2] Back then, I knew boring n***as Now I'm hot, and they all gone f** them n***as, no love for 'em Went & dropped a few bars on 'em Moving on, yo, f** my exes They gon' come back when a n***a pushing Lexuses Dying Will just strikes upon me I'm trying to spend a mil in Roppongi Darkness all in my brain Let that sh** exfoliate pain Every day I'm growing insane Let this nightmare ignite my reign Roller coaster of hellish themes Rappers claiming they Elohim I gut 'em out and I let 'em bleed Love to pain, it's faith to greed Inferno inside my soul so Our art shine like Soul-Glo I'm tired of being the underdog I bet you'll wake up when I'm gone Until then I'm gon' let my dreams Spill out my head, perspective bleak Morbid thoughts run through my mind My own worst enemy, broke the binds I'm out