John Wesley (Rap) - Don't Put Me On a Leash lyrics

I battle feelings you would not believe I'll never tell you cause I don't want to feel like I owe you an apology I see how you spend your day and time I guess I just wish you spent more of it finding a way to die No, no, I'm sorry, I don't mean that I'm a firm believer guns and k**ing are weak raps It's just; I'd really like what irritates me to be minimal And when you start talking I get tempted to be getting rid of you I delve deep inside of the unseen realm And wash up on familiar shores of sand and seashells It's just the same story I retell Brought to you by some daddy issues and a young female Started back before I got my diploma It all began at 13, felt like I was a no one Still think I was in love, I'm what she disposed of And intimidated by dormant feelings that I know are in a coma I never felt good being me But I could hide it, so I was even deceiving me The first three months would happen so peacefully And then, nothing but pleading on my knees that she would leave Don't put me on a leash; Don't put me on a leash Don't care if your name is Caroline or Annalise Or whether your car is paid for or on a lease Soon as you put a collar on me, I'm a beast And I promise you won't like it, so don't put me on a leash We all know how it feels When you begin to sense it all go downhill I didn't have enough game to make it a competition It's like I only could get with women living with something missing And I couldn't provide the replacement I didn't know my limitations Trying to offer something that I didn't have And somehow convincing myself that it would last (Uh huh) I guess I'm a s**er for love (Nuh uh) But only for a couple of months (Uh huh) I've only succumbed to suffering once So far from reality I forgot what recovering was I only get the urge to push females When they get bright-eyed and bushy tailed I get to wondering if you all could see everything That I've ever done in your opinion would you think I should see jail You should have learned not to make your view of someone elevated Or soon the faith you have in mankind will be desecrated I just know someday you'll be looking down on my name Cause the world doesn't see your imperfections and the faults that you've made A lesson you may never learn, but it serves you right The purchase price didn't include my personal life Expectations, you'll experience regrets somehow I'd be doing you harm if I never let you down Don't put me on a leash; Don't put me on a leash Don't care if your name is Caroline or Annalise Or whether your car is paid for or on a lease Soon as you put a collar on me, I'm a beast And I promise you won't like it, so don't put me on a leash