John Wesley (Rap) - Die Quiet lyrics

I've been blackmailed, caught red-handed Been green with envy and blue due to sadness I tell a lot of white lies cause I'm yellow to the core I'm in a violent environment like a violet in a storm I try to perform, to a sellout crowd But my songs are just me calling myself out loud I can't get through a couple bars without feeling the guilt I say I tell you everything but there is so much that still I conceal So the human race is in ruins Because humans love to condemn other humans for being human Ha, where do we learn this behavior, it's not improvement It's detrimental, are we consuming it through communion? Put my entire being up for sale, it was sold within minutes No contract with a major label, so independent A couple hundred thousand bars, a couple were the difference That took me from a widower to a cuckold with a mistress Find the purveyor of worldly evil and beat his face in Going to take your nightmare drawn darkest and recreate it Always getting reacquainted with a chord or a rope So are you going to hang yourself or be divorcing your phone? These calls, and texts are a ball of stress Forgot how to live or even walk, I'ma just crawl to d**h (Heroine Cloud), born a miracle, little later die quiet Entire life a phone or screen and being hypnotized by it Yeah, everybody has their ducks in a row But everything seemingly perfect is dysfunctional growth Having your own opinion at all will get you punched in the throat And having said that - I have this all under control