Joell Ortiz - Make It Without You lyrics

[Intro: Joell Ortiz] Rest in peace Grandma I'll always love you Your grandson Joell Ortiz [Verse 1: Joell Ortiz] Where you going? Why'd you leave me? My heart is broken Eyes is teary My head is aching Chest is wheezing I feel so empty You left's the reason I need air, something fresh to breathe in Forgot my jacket, my neck is freezing Man I'm so tired, ain't slept this weekend The fans together, doing separate grieving Dear Lord I'm upset this evening My stomach rebels, won't accept the eating "Sorry Joell" on every text I'm reading They trying to help, but it ain't stress relieving You the best at the lesson teaching And I let you down before so I guess we even You took my Grandmoms may she rest in peace and Crying's all I can do, but I know she up there wit you So [Hook: Alicia Keys] I'm gonna find a way to make it without you Tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you I'm gonna hold on to the times that we had Tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you [Verse 2: Joell Ortiz] I pour a little out, then commence the drinking My eyes get blurry, when I get to thinking Bout that long ride in that Limo Lincoln Through the cemetery, and your casket sinking You gone but it still ain't sink in I walk past your room and I still just peek in Hoping you reading or Hoping you sleeping or Hoping you eating or Hoping you breathing or Just hoping, it's sad I gotta hope Best part of my birthday, Grandma envelope Best part of my punishment, Grandma would say no He coming out with me Michelle, go and grab his coat She cried when I signed to Aftermath, that was dope And hung every magazine that ever had a quote I quit a while ago but I think I'll have a smoke Crying's all I can do, but I know she up there wit you So [Hook: Alicia Keys] [Verse 3: Joell Ortiz] My moms is mourning Tried my best to try to keep her calm this morning But her moms is gone and That's all she had besides me and my sons Her dad was 39 when he pa**ed, he died young Trying to make it through without Grams I really can't believe I'm writing this right now damn My youngest son's sad but he don't really understand My oldest one cried on the phone, my voice held his hands I'm sorry I couldn't see with all the tears It's hard to let go someone you been with all these years Grandmom I hold up that a wall for you I swear Aight freak freak I can't do this sh** no more We gotta stop this sh** now [Hook: Alicia Keys]