Joe Budden - Angel In My Life lyrics

[Verse 1] Let's look behind the Swarovski crystals Behind the .50 calibers and the pistols Misused, pardoned self got to excuse, my issues For me to have you a ritual But, I ain't as crazy as I seem to be It's just that nothin' is the way that is seem's to me Im feelin' less then, druggin' him up with anti-depressents In essence im threatenin my character asessment Truth told, I figure a few hoe's Mixed with some new clothes should cover my loop holes If I'm misundersttod or mis-guided Started when they pa**ed the L' said 'just try it' When I don't wanna get out of bed I just fight it Sometimes I don't eat for days I just diet Only live once so if I just like it I aint even checkin' the price, I just buy sh** I'm thinkin that will just hide it But all it takes is life to ignite sh** I'm thinkin' bout d**h wonderin' how I'm gonna go I can't be insane for just wantin' to know In my head I die often, I used to think of suicide often Good suit on and a nice coffin But, that ain't somethin' I would try myself Still they lock me in this room all by myself I need a... think I need a..... [Hook] [Verse 2] They say my symptoms are aggressive They titled me a compulsive obsessive slash manic depressive They trying to tell I'm a con and I game n***as That's one reason I dont even entertain n***as Not important who they are I won't name n***as They like to say I got a tendency to blame n***as I keep f**in' sh** up but keep tryin' If ya'll would just trust me I wouldn't just keep lyin' If I had bread I wouldn't be in debt Let me clarify get in Def I feel like every time I been less When ever I invest whenever I inset I feel I'm innept I try to make them understand but they just won't incept I tell them four million others I am the templed There ain't no book that tells a story there ain't no index We got some different type of cuts and no they ain't princess All this indigest seemingly in less How I take in stress when I always went best Aching in my chest and yet it still won't break me They say the room is padded for my own safety But the cushion don't soften sh** They locked the door but still they let my thoughts in it And no one can tell me why I'm here I can't even see the sky from here I guess my time is near