Joe Budden - All In My Head lyrics

Quarter on the loose Quarter on the loose Loose quarter Few questions I ask myself Maybe it started with Slaughterhouse, or was it tour life? Maybe it wouldn't had started at all if I had your life Maybe it was me or that I was thinking immorally If I wasn't myself could I say I gave the fans all of me? Can't decide if I'm more ashamed of what this all mean Than I am of all the lessons that was taught to me Headed up field but couldn't dodge the last tackler High to the floor we thinkin moves her a** backwards How could I do with no regrets at all, willing to bet it all Not realize that quicker demise, how could I neglect it all? I'm so seasonal, some of you knew what to bring back With a heart this cold, how'd ya'll think I'd be receptive to fall sponsored links I'm plenty comfortable when danger's around And even more so when strangers around In a bigger picture, was sicker down on my triggers And all the alarm enforcers Down to a n***a, that I'm about for d** and liquor or the harm it causes Life and d**h, I tried to lynch myself Thought I could keep it all a secret, I convinced myself But really the folk that loved me, they could tell I was loakin I couldn't see him, cry me a river cuz it fell in the ocean Numb to my words now, maybe felt it was open I cut so many people who was through, I need help with devotion That's just some of the things I ask my Lord the savior And when He calls to me, well He have done us all a favor How did I make it here? Who are you? I feel so lost Now I'm not seeing it clear Is it my fault? Is it my fault? It's all in my head I'm looking around like this can't be happening Round of applause for the angry rappers Lord my girl cried me a flood then me a river That's love depending on me when I'm a dependent on liquor I'm up in the shoe store, she got no love to show You ever look at a b**h she was f**ing behind your b**h back like f** I was f**in you for, come on I'm an artist so I'm intelligent I would tell you to do some soul searchin But it's hangin up in my closet with your skeleton There's gotta be gospel, even a diamond gotta be polished first The court is on the loose and I ain't been out here getting my dollars' worth I had to remove the goggles first To see throw the sippin patrone and 50 phonies fool I need to go get me a kidney doner Guru, make talk, go head blink your eye Your doctor told me you close, go ahead drink and die Buried under the stone where the patrone 5th sits by That reads hella somebody who never wanted to be this guy How did I make it here? Who are you? I feel so lost Now I'm not seeing it clear Is it my fault? Is it my fault? It's all in my head They say knowledge is power, great cuz every day I learn As of late been having revelations bout this hate turn Hate the way they trust me, 2 I got the case adjourned Hated the belly of the beast to I became its tapeworm When I said I'd stop getting high tried to say it's done No, I'm the type to walk through the fire to check the way it burn They say my brain is off, I say how can it be? If I'm out my mind how can I be in sanity? The people used to say that I was scared of progress They don't know how hard a n***a tried to advance But I don't know who'd more to blame? Is it them for really not knowing me? Or is it me for really not giving them a chance? Get too close, be too big of a threat Now it's been little than no time Thinking why I ain't get rid of you yet Gotta recognize my maturity Gotta see I'm grown Letting my skeletons out the closet just so I never be alone Since I got trust issues I won't discuss with you But besides God tell me who the fruck's supposed to save you Pop one, have one man to man, what's going after the light's out? Somewhere in his head probly feel it in his place too Plus more people will see me soon I mean I'll be on national TV soon So when I ask if people I have around are cancer for me That's 4 million more that might be able to answer for me Joe How did I make it here? Who are you? I feel so lost Now I'm not seeing it clear Is it my fault? Is it my fault? It's all in my head