JkJ - Self Inflicted Wound lyrics

[ JkJ Verse 1] I still be thinkin bout ya, can't delete the pictures Tryna numb the pain, but its self inflicted What we had was great, your presence was gifted I can't even lie I miss it Its obvious your a part of me forever These summer days are colder and these winters kinda bitter Cuz Im on my own, and that ain't where I wanna be Year later and I still can never find some peace Strollin as a lifeless drone, people ask why I ain't home Searching to find a purpose of why Im feeling worthless Curbed enthusiasm, you'd imagine, Smiles are never permanent Tryna block the thoughts, until their triggered by certain sh** I know that I ain't perfect, and sometimes I deserve the sh** But I mean this from my soul's depth that Im still learning And all the hurting and pain, I would go through everyday Just to have you call my name, and say you love me again And its, unlikely, the thought still excites me Questioning myself like did I really do the right thing Probably not, Im Thinkin, Should Probably stop Im caught up, Im in my thoughts, Slowly Dying, as you watch [Hook] I'm Slowly Dying as you watch,I'm Slowly Dying as you watch, I'm Slowly Dying as you watch, I'm Slowly Dying.. And Times tickin off the clock, And Times tickin off the clock, And Times tickin off the clock, I'm Slowly Dying as you watch [JkJ Verse 2] Im big enough to admit to stuff, So no I ain't over sh** I still wanna hit you up, Even if just as friends You call and Im pickin up, I guess I ain't get enough Or I just believe in love, Wish I could take it back Back to the old days, I know the pain I caused, Im mending my old ways, I know that its over, I just can't believe in that Convinced I can get you back, Don't know what to do exact Then I come across old messages, of you tellin me Im the best there is, How nobody Ever loved you in the way I did, Girl we almost had a kid I just wish that you were here, When I need you You said we're always gon be close and I believed you How it go from us to other people, Why can't we admit our faults and reconvene Why I miss you and you're never missing me? [Hook] I'm Slowly Dying as you watch,I'm Slowly Dying as you watch, I'm Slowly Dying as you watch, I'm Slowly Dying.. And Times tickin off the clock, And Times tickin off the clock, And Times tickin off the clock, I'm Slowly Dying as you watch