Jim Carroll - I Want the Angel lyrics

I want the angel Whose dreams are fatal They cause the snake's milk to run and curdle I want the angel Whose darkness doubles It absorbs the brilliance of all my troubles I want the angel That will not shatter Every time I whisper, "Girl it does not matter" I want the angel Who's got the proof She signals her devotion from the rails on the roof I want the angel That comes to stay She don't let lawyers and ambition lead her away I want the angel Whose eyes are raving Who takes what I'm giving and not what I'm saving I want the angel Whose bones are so sharp That they can break through their own excuses Well, to be a blind man, Hey, that would be a fine thing Then I could dream at night of total strangers And all the music would be so spaceless And all the women would be so faceless, They'd be so faceless they'd be like old film Just like old film I never did process I want the angel That knows the sky She got virtue, she got the parallel light in her eye I want the angel That's partly lame She filters clarity from her desperate shame I want the angel That knows rejection Who's like a who*e in love with her own reflection I want the angel Whose touch don't miss When the blood comes through the dropper like a thick red kiss If I could break through I could be certain But this obsession is like some fiery curtain All the numbers reduced to zero And those who died young, they are my heroes They are my heroes, they took the walk Where the heart made sense and the mind can't talk I want the angel Whose child don't weep She's got dreams designed for eternal sleep I want the angel That will not change Into a four-legged monster in love with the strange I want the angel That never chooses And don't come running back every time she loses But I want the angel that never loses