Jiggz - Fallen (Remix) lyrics

... I can't say no knowin' I'm able to help I push people that love me away - And started hatin' myself I want more for n***as than I want for myself They see sh** in me I don't see in myself I just gotta see it myself Chest pains - Breathin' strange That still ain't enough to keep me sober I'm tryin' to be numb when the reaper come - The devil takin' over And I'm takin' orders Fallin' right into his trap Shell cases hit the floor - After he get clapped I just want my n***as back Until then this .40 gon' cry for me They gone but they ain't dead - I feel my n***as alive in me I ain't got a lie in me And that's funny 'cause My girl'll probably say - "Why you lyin' n***a?" I did her the worst And even tho she hurt from it - She still run back She think I'm the one Her friends think she a dumba** Sorries ain't enough And I can't take that stuff back She might love me forever - But I'll never get her trust back [Talking] All the sh** I can't change Is the sh** I gotta live with I done lost so many people that I love in my life that - I start to take people for granted I don't care whether they stay or leave [Verse 2] My n***a called me drunk - Said he tryna ride And I can tell by his voice - That he was holdin' in his cry Wish I was lookin' in his eyes 'Cause that brought tears to mine I love my brothers to d**h And I ain't scared to die I put it all on the line - My life and my freedom I keep on talkin' to god - It ain't like I'm gon' meet 'em 'Cause the way my life goin' n***a I know where I'm goin' n***a Horns on my head yeah I could feel 'em growin' bigger I lost the closet n***as to me - Y'all don't know that feeling Now this revenge up in this clip the sh** y'all gotta deal with Ain't not stoppin' my k**ers - We givin' n***as endings - To their stories Started all on Torrey I was just a shorty - Young n***a with no guidance When them bullets started flyin' That's what turned us into riders The moment you slip you get hit Then you get a moment of silence Think they know me 'cause of rap But they don't know me the slightest [Talking] Everything I put in these songs mean somethin' to me And it all come from a real place But it don't matter how much I put in these songs tho 'Cause y'all will never really know [Verse 3] I dropped My Life Real - Look at me now I'm poppin' That's back when I was hungry - And quittin' wasn't an option Now I contemplated - Real life issues f** up my concentration To the point I can't make a song Sorry I kept y'all waitin' But I got sh** I gotta deal with - My mother still in debt Ain't spendin' time with my children As much as I should 'Cause sh** their clothes gettin' smaller And this dough keep on callin' There's a choice I gotta make That don't make me a bad father 'Cause I ain't tryin' to see my little n***as starvin' I need my money long Until the point I pay for their colleges I know n***as gon' judge me But at least I'm bein' honest I need it all right now Ain't tryna wait for tomorrow 'Cause that ain't promised So I keep somethin' on me - That keep 'em off me Keep droppin' all this heat Just somethin' to keep 'em talkin' I'm tryna chase my dreams - You tired? Then keep on walkin' I shoulda been reached the top Now y'all know why I keep on fallin'