Jesse Ketive - A Gift a Curse lyrics

What I've done What I've seen The lives I've touched what does it mean? Losing track of everything I gave it all But what did I gain? And I don't care what waits for me on the other side of life's release Cause when I close my eyes your face is all I see So even if I die I'll never rest in peace I was desperate just to shine Now I struggle constantly to survive I have nothing to prove to you And I've tried so many times to show that what I feel is real No, this is not a joke But you keep pushing me And now you've gone too far And there's no turning back And now I hope you choke and f**ing burn in hell Nothing changes All I know is that I'm alone in this Silently I wait Hoping you'd come back for me Seems like I'll be Waiting 'till the end Knowing that I can't speak to you again Truth is you were never there I don't need your empty words or bullsh** sympathy So here's a gift for all those years of mocking me Now I wish all this evil upon you You deserve to feel what I'm going through