Jeff Spec - I've Been Trying lyrics

{Trying to understand why} [Verse 1] You know lately I've been trying to get it Where I'm going. Why I'm heading that way Why I keep the most high embedded - - inside the rhymes. So what's my religion? Just across the booth is them islams, and f**-the-systems My ex-girl wonder why I left her I wondered why I depended on her. Had to ask if I'd be better - - on my own. And that's getting to be a lot of questions But I'd me alright even if this is goodbye forever You go from talking what kind of wedding - - to saying who moves out, and who get's what It's messed up And I'll admit I felt lost, even cried a bit Thinking 'bout the plans we made. Even retirement I need a psychologist. Maybe psychiatrist Somebody to prescribe some sh**. I can't describe this I need a psychic. Nah, I need a scientist Tell me what's happening in my heart Look inside of it [Hook] You go uh, ah ah, uh ah {So sincere...} You go uh, ah ah, uh ah {That I believe you loved me...} Yes I do. You know I do {Can't understand why} [Verse 2] See, I thought I had it figured out The early bird get the worm The rich man get the model chick and ?? her out The love the rapper with the big ego, bigger mouth What is it about? You got the answer – give the kid a shout I'm trying to navigate the mazing you do But it's a stone cold world. Got me dazed and confused Hard to balance doing me and tryina play by the rules Never waited for my turn when I was making my move Gave very little of my knowledge staying in school So yes I'm a drop out, quitter, and a cop-out I talk educated though. Collar still pop out Sweater still clever looking. Doing what they said I couldn't And that's the stuff dreams are made of This is soul-food for thought. Something you need to play ?? Feedback? Yeah I'll take it all. Hate. Love But no indifference, and please no fake love [Hook] [Verse 3] Pops said be a lawyer. Moms said be a doctor So you go to school for a while to keep 'em off ya At least I did, but no degree, no diploma Tryina make it through the world – sh** you gotta be a boxer Stay up on your toes. Don't let these people stop you They hit below the belt. Now, that ain't even proper I'll make something of myself before I need a walker Your girl used to diss me, now she fin to be a stalker It's funny how the tables turn, but never think you're better than no one sh**, we all the same. We all made of s**m I see this money like it's made to burn. Mistakes like they meant to be made You live and every day you learn I got questions. Wonder if God can answer them Why I get that cancer, man? Why you take my grandma? Damn My memories caught her face like a camera lens And I know I'll see her again when I get there [Outro] {Keep on trying} {So sincere} {I want to go with my heart} {That I believe you loved me} {Keep on trying} {Keep on trying}