Jeff Rosenstock - It k**s Me To Have To Be Alive lyrics

Something about the summer I didn't cope with well And every time I walked in this room in the same spot I tripped and fell And I check my spit for blood and I do not call enough I spill my guts for money, but you don't find my jokes that funny There's something in the tone of my voice That makes you question everything I say And I will never learn to just shut my mouth And bury things our parents' way And you said that I should quit what I fear And I know I just wanted it to be my idea And you said that I do not exist And I know at least now we agree on it And I'll keep telling myself that I'm not just here for everyone else Make plans for birthdays that I don't care if I celebrate And I'm sorry that I can't be what everybody wants from me I do not feel that I am loved But I do not reach out enough But I'm reaching up I'll let this all fall down around me [x3] And I'll fail but at least I'll try It's the most I can hope for most of the time It k**s me to have to be alive It's k**ing me to have to be alive