JBarb - Pandora lyrics

[Verse 1] With all these thoughts in my mental, I feel it's essential I express em whether living in bliss or if I'm stressing Never gripped a Smith and Wesson, thanks to the lessons That Momma taught me: "No catching bodies outside of trust falls" That's what she'd tell all her children before "I love y'all" Then kiss our foreheads before we head to the bus stop On our way to school, we would probably pa** a gun shop Now, it's blood clots in my mug shots from corrupt cops If science is God I guess that makes me master at defying the odds Still perceived as a ba*tard in the eyes of the law A life lost is the untimely demise of us all Being involved in a life can solve Problems that financially providing cannot And I ain't even tryna preach, I'm just trying to talk But the silence keeps on magnifying my thoughts RED blood spilled over GREEN dollars bills BLACK teen steals when a WHITE cop k**s Innocent lives lost by the GOLD mine fills VIOLET pills copped and popped for cheap thills They shop for refills and give children the chills Dudes want millions but still have no sk**s Swimming in the river of sharks with no gills Invisible ink forged the signatures on ya wills [Bridge] Silencing my mind as my soul speaks I've been feeling salty this whole week, I'm so weak So throw me in the hole where the crow's eat A crow's feet landed on the side of my eye with both feet And I leave them there as a reminder I don't sleep Cause I'm wide awake, I'm wide awake I can see my whole life today, it's like "Today are we tryna live the righteous way Or just repent once our time is gray?" [Hook: jBarb] I don't know Where I'm going now All I know It's that you've helped me through the crowd You make me happy for why & how You are a flower, pretty and round I wanna hold you close to my body The star's we'll count, every last one's got a story I see you laying there under the sheets Come here closer while I rub your feet Your eyes so deep like a Black Keys poster And you drive me crazy, I hope it's never over Baby, you're my woman only You make me smile, never ever lonely With you by my side, I need you by my side You're my ride or die, but baby, oh my [Verse 2] Jotting lyrics on the city bus These chicks is sickened with lust, they don't get any trust From my heart, you gotta catch my mind as a start But most of y'all are only interested in physical parts So maybe it's my temple filled with all these mystical thoughts Or perhaps it's the fact I've got a blackened soul And my spirit is dark; I'm feeling like I'm a pessimist who is positive Optimistic outlook on life viewed through my optic lens But actually reality happens to be the opposite Of good when things don't go the way that they should've went What's life when it's nothing like what it could've been? Blame it on the hood you're in, enduring pain that wouldn't end The window to your past is what you're looking in Would you re-write a page or change the whole book again? Nevertheless, while reflecting in retrospect I guess my regrets couldn't be stressing me much less High self-respect collected without the help of a check While progressing on my quest, The Pursuit of feeling the best That I've ever felt, because happiness is a test From a lesson I slept on but I'll give it a guess Deep in debt trying to make a change from living worthless So I made a purchase and gave a homeless person the rest Yes, I must confess that I am tired of stress I'm on my knees yelling "please!", begging God to be blessed