Jay Webster - J.A.P.A.N. lyrics

I'm f**in' tired of this So f** it, so f** it Are you listening? I'm digging into your thoughts. It's been a long time since you and I have talked I've had a hard in this sh**, the sh** I call life. And I bet you're better off without being in mine Do you know how hard it is to try to be a man? And being lost in a world he doesn't understand? All these f**ing years, feeling like I'm nothing All I ever wanted, was for you to f**ing love me You should be ashamed of yourself, f** you and your f**ed up mind cause you abandoned me And you'll never be a man cause we can clearly see; that I'll be better off without You're f**ing worthless to me Why the f** did you leave me? What the f** did I do to you? Can you answer this question? Or will you just let it through your head? All the f**ing years and I've still yet to feel Like anyone could give a f** because I constantly deal With the absence of importance, such a long lasting pain All because you didn't want to be a father to me (you piece of sh**) Because of you my whole life has been hell to live I'm nothing close to a man and I got nothing to give (not even a man) I'm just so empty, so bitter and broken It's not a grudge that I'm holding, it's the hatred that was born within You gave up before you could even try f** me for believing in you But I just know; I don't get it, and I never will Because this will never make Sense to me I felt like a sick dog when you put me down Years later still standing take a look at me now Take a look at me now Take a look at me now