Jarren Benton - My Grandma's Basement lyrics

[Verse 1] My grandmas basement Felt like there was no escaping Some days felt suicidal I was scared I would never make it I got problems n***a, I got issues b**h I don't want to live no more Im'ma let this pistol spit Give me a therapist That know magic tricks Prescribe me something, n***a change my life I need happiness, sunshine Darkness that's all I see I drank away my pain and popped a few pills I can't wait to fall Asleep sponsored links Damn I think d**h is calling me Wake up and I'm still here Like f** I'm too scared to die These pills and this vodka making me feel weird I don't hang around like I used to Paranoid that Im'a lose her I'm scared of what my b**h think I know any day I might lose her Too unstable to raise a kid What the f** holy sh**! I just came to this realization Its been nine months I just noticed it This must be a nightmare Pinch myself, somebody awake him I open my eyes and I wake And I'm still right here in my grandmas basement Noooo! [Hook] My gran'ma basement, yeah n***a my gran'ma basement My gran'ma basement, yeah n***a my gran'ma basement Some days I felt so scared I wouldn't make it Some days I felt so scared I wouldn't make it Yeah outta' my gran'ma basement, yeah n***a my gran'ma basement [Verse 2] At night I can't go to sleep I feel like someone's stabbing me Inside of my f**ing heart Just like clock work this pain grows gradually Actually I still have a little bit of hope Maneuvering the anguish and sh** I wrote I ain't got patience the way I'm dope Give a n***a one shot they like, no! Now its back to my grandmas basement With all this anger and this frustration Stress can't be complacent There he go again getting wasted Pacing around his room so anxious Wish I had a space ship 'bout to go ape-sh** How much more can a n***a like me take it Before a mother f**er go and cave in ahhh! f** this rap sh**, it ain't happening quick enough My homies say I shouldn't give it up But honestly I don't give a f** My girl b**hing 'bout cash n***a I'm strapped down to my last n***a My baby hungry and need new clothes And I swear they grow so fast n***a These nine to fives don't pay enough I'm about to hit the bank and go spray it up I've got to get the f** out this basement These dreams and hopes ain't waiting up This must be a nightmare Pinch myself, somebody awake him I open my eyes and I wake And I'm still right here in my grandmas basement Noooo! [Hook] [Verse 3] I'm on the edge, f**ed up in the head I don't know who I am no mo' I lost faith in religion God please give me just one anticdote I plan to blow But I panic so much these days I can't see straight We can't relate Cause I'm losing it and out of my rocker Don't know what to do with it This music ain't lucrative Papa keep talkin that go back to school b**h you sounding so ludicrous Stuck on that stupid sh** I should be thankful while laying in the basement Instead of the pavement My brain is just aching My city they sleeping They hating But f** 'em I eat 'em I'm packing my sh** up this evening I can't turn back f** that sh**, damn it I'm leaving Got to get out of here find my way My sanity's slipping Im'ma go crazy Got to make moves What's it goin' take me I'm stuck on my own No one saves me So what you gonna do when there's no where to go And the world seems cold And the pain keep aching You finally made it It's your worst nightmare when you lose And you got to go back to the basement Noooo! [Hook]