Jarren Benton - I Deserve It lyrics

[Verse 1] Tried suicide once didn't have the balls to go all the way Thought a bottle of pain pills will take all my hurt away I was so in depression and all this pain was gon’ murder me I’m still standin’ b**h go tell the f** n***as come murder me Born and raised on the Eastside ho [?] what the hell he go Young dumb a** n***a doing stupid as sh** What the f** I know Mama like “boy better get it togheter Here, read the Bibe-biti-biti-bibe-biti-biti-bible” In one ear and out the other that’s how she sound In the back of my dome Hit a half of pound in the back of her home “God damn boy what the f** goin' on” I’m sorry mom, I ain’t built like that sponsored links But I’m so stressed out and I feel so alone Got a little girl, all the way broke as f** And I still live in my grandma’s house So my girlfriend thinks I’m a loser b**h, I’m tryin’, God damn, what’s that about? f** it, I feel like givin’ up I cannot play the cards that God has dealt I feel like that’s enough So I dig deep down inside to find a strength for me to buck up What don’t k** me make me stronger Now it’s time to get the f** up [Hook] Ki-ki-k**in’ everything, I’m on that murder sh** I wake up everyday like that’s the only thing my purpose is All the pain I felt guess it was worth it b**h It’s when a n***a makes it to the top, I deserve that sh** I deserve that sh**, I deserve that sh** If a hater loses his life, then he deserves that sh** I deserve that sh**, I deserve that sh** We deserve that sh** We’re so f**in’ high, yup b**h We deserve that sh** [Bridge] All I do is k** sh**, k** sh**, k** sh** All I do is k** sh**, k** sh**, k** sh** All I do is k** sh**, k** sh**, k** sh** All I do is murder, murder, murder Murder, murder, murder [Verse 2] I’ma k** everything in sight I was put here to murk your life I’ma rapin’ and murder mics I’m a demon that cursed tonight Put my heart on this paper and scribble pain like it hurts to write This is sport and decapitate motherf**ers the first to fight First to swing a sword at hoes Loan that rope, my heart so cold f**, I gave like throw my souls Rap sh** is like all I know Been patienly waitin’ to flow I feel like I can’t take anymore I’m drowned in my misery, this despression is breakin’ me slow f** it, gotta get up and fight, can no motherf**er here hold me down I’ma show these clowns, where the f** is my crown Click-click blah, I’ma blow these rounds Go so hard, we deserve that sh** Back then I was so wothless b**h Can’t walk one f**in’ mile in my shoes Your p**y a** n***as better s** my dick Yeah, I’m tryna upgrade on my cashflow I’m kickin’ down the door so what the f** you think this mask for Hope you dyin’ slow then come back a f*ggot’s a**hole Kato on the track, so n***as know I’m ‘bout to spaz ho [Hook] [Bridge]