James Blake - Animosity / Dear Xodi lyrics

[Verse 1: Johnny Rain] I've been working off the ave all week I ain't tryna hear a melody Talking whatever you have on me You don't wanna see my salary What do you love? All you dream is my reality Don't be tripping, don't be mad at me I been living out a bag all week b**h, follow suit You don't think I do but I know you I ain't thinking about her or you I been thinking about her on you Like 1 on 2 Who do you love? Call me daddy while I cum on you I think I'ma make you cum for me I've been feeling kinda numb all week But I'll f** you right [Verse 2: Johnny Rain] I've been tryna get it all How come you don't ever talk? Why am I the only one who calls? How come you don't get involved? Oh Lord I've been going through some (sh**) I try not to cry at all But I can't lie, I kinda bawl Smoking some ... Smoking something for the 4 Alcohol ain't it at all Popping up that PM I ain't talking tylenol Oh God I've been going through withdrawals Dreaming that one day I ball Dreaming that one day I ball [Hook: Johnny Rain] I've got so much animosity in my heart I've got so much animosity in my heart In my, yeah Part 2: Dear Xodi [Verse: Johnny Rain] It's 2am and my minds gone Tryna figure out what I'm on Open bottle pouring that I could die on Drowning out the sound of my Lion All the nights of hearing him cry long Even I'm in need of a shoulder to cry on But I gotta act like I'm strong Alone tryna figure how Ima buy some f**ing diapers for my son When I don't even know how I'ma keep the lights on I swear like sh** was all good couple years ago High rides in the city slow High lives, something spiritual 22 on my hip for any n***a that's Plotting to come and get me though And you Having trouble staying consistent Knowing we were built for commitment But honestly, I'm so used to everybody that isn't That I don't know how to be it myself anymore, I'm tripping sh**, I need some guidance And you might look at me different I know this ain't what we envisioned I just wonder if you see me fighting Cause I remember just starting, When me and Mary just parted And sh** it might've been nothing to few Cause there were so many flaws and I still don't know what you saw in me or How I got so lucky with you But at that point there was nothing to lose Im still f**ing with you I swear after dealing with flaky n***as Like Joel, CL, and YG Relations wearing thinner than Rose, Neelam, Ali Its getting harder to trust the people I see They think it's harder on them, it's tougher for me But don't ever stop putting on for the boy Some people pray for my fall Those things I choose to ignore In fact, I'm starting to think I was better off before You and I against the world Forever yours OD n***a for real [Outro: James Blake] It's red to me Cause I don't know any different that you're proud of me It's red to me And I don't know any different that you're proud of me (That you're proud of me)