Jake Miller - Steven lyrics

Yeah, look Let me tell you bout a kid named Steven He still be running out of things to believe in every couple of months his mom leaves him for no good reason his stepdad beats him Not too many friends, only ever had a few of them, but recently they don't want anything to do with him Always eatin lunch in the bathroom stalls he just wants to feel normal and be cool again yeah, always feeling like the outcast hes been going crazy ever since he's dad pa**ed and he's got it in the vice but he's daddy only has break downs and flash backs of the car crash it's been getting harder every day if he was still around everything will be okay, 'cause his dad was always the light at the end of the tunnel but now the same damn tunnels looking dark and gray sponsored links he keeps quiet in the back of the cla** and when the bell rings Steven hurries home fast He's scared that the other kids will kick his a** on the long walk home cause its happened in the past he's getting used to the black eyes and fat lips, but all he's got is a fake smile and cut wrists wishin he can walk right up to em show em the scars and say look you're the reason that I've done this, and maybe you'll finally understand, and go back to how it was .before It all began, but it's just a little difference so they taunt him and they beat him yeah Its all just fun and games, they don't give a damn, his older brother ain't around in and out in jail, hanging with the wrong crowd, he's been doing coke, smoking weed, getting drunk all his life is a shame, no is not too proud, now what's happened to him rubbin off on his little bro, yeah but guess what, little did he know that every time you did a line, every time you lit a joint every time you took a shot, you was at the mode, so Steven sitting in his room, getting high now, doors locked, music up with the lights out, he just takes another toke for the rooms filled with smoke 5-6-7 hours till he knocks out, Find More lyrics at www.sweetslyrics.com now Hes startin stealin pills from his mom 8-9-10 at a time and now they're gone and maybe for the moment all his problems seem to fade but the high fades too, after not too long, and that's when it really sinks in and it's when it hits em, that these god damn d** wont fix em, cut up on the floor, can't take it anymore now it's talking to God, 'cause it's the only one that gets em, on his knees, looking up, can't stop crying, God I know we haven't talked in a long time, but it's time I really need you, please God help me say something just give me a sign 'cause now I'm falling apart and now I think that I can do it, Please God give me the strength to pull through it, tell me should I give up, I can end it all right now I just don't know if Im brave enough to do it, 'cause it's gotta be a better way than suicide trying to wait it out, give it time, youll be fine but it's been so long, and I still haven't been able to get rid of all the thoughts that i feel inside, so sick, so angry so mad. and I top it off, no one even knows that thats when he stood up, wipe his tears walked over to his desk and got a pen and a notepad he just couldn't see getting any better so on a cold dark night in December, Steven knew exactly what he had to do but first he sat down and wrote a couple letters One to his stepdad, one to his mother, couple to the kids at school, one to his brother, bringing them the pain and that they once brought him Tear drops on the paper, one after another Yeah hope that you all feel guilty, 'cause I'm broken now and you can't heal me, now you're all an accomplice of murder, each and everyone have chipped in to k** me so the reason that I'm writing you this evening it's a simple plan- to tell you that I'm leavin. but don't hold you breath 'cause I ain't never coming back Sincerely yours, Steven