Jak Tripper - Ex Ray Sky lyrics

Her idea of paradise is tropical water islands with white sands Mine is grey skies and a suicide note on a night stand I used to get her to crack smiles She hates my guts, my guts rotting from the inside Oozing of hate and black bile She bears cancer in her breath This girl like the others made me feel complete, but it was a dream in my head Now I feel obsessed Not with her but the idea that I was left I can't lift myself out of bed There's a hole in my chest where my heart would nest The rotting egg, but f** therapy Depression speaks to my music and lack of energy And thanks for the cold love Your idea of concern punched a hole in my chest and froze lungs No matter how much d**h, violent s**, and meds I fed up with it won't close up You wanna help? Hold up Do me a favor, hold the rest of these pills and put them on the sink while I throw up (Chorus x2) You're never coming back, there's no sense in coming back I'm gone now, and my blood is running black Ex ray sky dropped tears when the sun was cracked I'm dead inside, you crushed what was left over, not much intact I'm in the house crashing from coke Paranoia got me half naked and choked Holding the doorknob alone, till schizophrenia spoke I told my ex I was gonna blow my head off with a shotgun, the shotgun that I hold, with one bullet to load She was surprisingly distraught over the phone at her job, I hung up and convulsed The cops came later in vests, detective in a coat Called me on the phone telling me to calm down, I won't be arrested or roped I'm trying to get clothed They rushed me, when I came out, pistols to my face pressed up against my nose Chest in the dirt, knees in my back out in the cold Go to the hospital cuffed, nurses came escorted with orderlies and gloves and lifted me up I swung, spit the juice at his mug, I bit, kicked, and punched I felt the bugs crawling from the needle that plunged into my leg muscle, and went numb Dropped like my father when he was drunk, when I was young And flashbacks struck when I woke up, holding an I.V., rigged the pole, clutched as I crutched I was snuffed, stuffed, drugged, strung out, black blood drying on the forearms that run Stains on the ceiling, roommate twitching from ticks in his tongue Remembering about the neighbor who tried to poison his lunch I haven't seen the sun They asked me where the burn marks are from The body whited the sheets they tied me to Hospital gown, lime with blue My face is blank as the panel of doctors I was lying to Trying to ignore the shadows that still continue to climb the room Climate's cooled the room cyclothymic womb Tremors seismic (Chorus x4) You're never coming back, there's no sense in coming back I'm gone now, and my blood is running black Ex ray sky dropped tears when the sun was cracked I'm dead inside, you crushed what was left over, not much intact