Jade Ox - Aspirations lyrics

[Intro] This sh**'s not a movie [Verse 1] I've been doing this since birth, since I was a fetus Mind-f**ing the Earth with the purpose of a genius Visions I'm believing, so dreams ain't never leaving I need a Jesus piece just for something to believe in The preachers keep on preaching, the teachers keep on teaching Too deep in the deep end, I'll probably never reach it So I watch from the bleachers at beaches when the night is decent Contemplate my life, the time is right to see my reasons Letting life pa** fast like the last seasons Drowning in sins cause I'm weighed down by demons Strap on my Js, these dreams is getting chased Reaching for stars with shades, the sun in my face Steel chains on my waist weigh the boulders of the Earth The weight on these shoulders is what makes the wait worth But wait, is it worth my soul body and mind? Fine If it's gold you hope to find, then go to the blind And ask the deaf about the voice of the kind And they say hate is where the home is Go tell that to the homeless [Verse 2] I used to pray my life would move a little faster Used to daydream about girls chasing after Asian rapper If i could be heard, just to get the words out My life was on focus but now that sh** is blurred out Shallow cause I swam in the deep Writing on beats, fly cause of the sides of my sneaks Chi-City, eyes on the tracks and the beats Chi-City, eyes on my back when I sleep Keep a piece when I head home Cause they jumped my man for some f**ing headphones Ironic that he blasting that street sh** That rob steal and cheat sh** Got his feet halfway in the mud like some cleats, sh** They exterminate, let this sh** permeate So I can stay in a permanent place f** what these other cats say I'm running treadmills in this rat race And my punchlines are cheap shots So don't get it twisted, cause I keep knots The Jeep got deep knocks, pumping like Reeboks She nods when I show her the golly gee gosh I put the gold in the gun For every soul I front Emcees crawling out every hole in the slums And you gotta shine bright to be a star So I'm sitting lonely nights at the bar People hate cause they see who they really are This rap sh** been pretty decent pretty far Helps me see who decent and who just reaching from afar So until the day that we on f** everything and f** everyone [Outro] This is Jade Ox Wrapping up OXTAPE You know, when I came here I had nothing My mom had nothing My dad had nothing My brother had nothing We were sleeping head to feet, head to feet, head to feet But I'm about to go from fresh off the boat to fresh off the jet I got this sh** figured OXTAPE