J1K - Last Letter To My Best Friend lyrics

[Intro: isuppose] Yo yo, what's up Jenny, haha! [Verse: 1 isuppose] ''Yo waddup girl, how you doin'? It's been a while, I'm just writing you this letter to tell you I miss your smile I miss everything about you, guess I just need a hug Been thinking 'bout doing d**, I probably just need some love Haven't showered in three days, haven't eaten nor shaved I been stuck inside my room, just wishing for better days And my fans keep messaging me, asking me for advice Little girl I met last week really tried to take her life And she's only thirteen, she overdosed, almost died Posting hospital pictures, saying; 'Why am I still alive?' I told her to keep her head up, but I'm sitting here in the dark Feeling lost, trying to figure out what's tearing me apart Have this pain in my heart, it's slowly k**ing me inside And to tell you the truth, I wish that you were by my side 'Cuz whenever I'm feeling down, I laugh when I see your smile And it hurts for me to say it but I think I have to leave you now.'' [Hook: Unknown] [Verse:2 isuppose] The other day I heard my momma crying, and arguing with pops And when I heard the tone in her voice, my f**in' heart dropped I felt like I was gettin' stabbed, felt like I was gettin' shot It's like that scene in the movies you don't want your kids to watch So I closed my eyes, and see my life being perfect 'Till I wake up and realize that inside I'm feeling worthless And it's almost like if God is doing this sh** on purpose Trying to figure out my purpose, tell me, do I deserve this? My grandpa is in the hospital, fighting to see another day While I'm contemplating suicide, playing these games Is a lifetime of pain, and whenever we go through hell It's like we blame everyone else, but we never blame ourselves So I thank you for the help, for being my best friend Dear Jenny, you know I love you and it's so sad it has to end And I couldn't give you much but I'ma leave you with my voice And I don't wanna leave you no more, but you leave me no choice *pulls trigger followed by gunshot* [Hook: Unknown] [Outro: Unknown] 'It's easy to die, it's harder to live''