J. Smith - Soon You'll Understand lyrics

[Intro: Jay-Z] Mmm, you don't understand now because you're cryin, and you hurt You'll understand soon enough Soon enough [Hook: Al Kooper] Let him hold you, let him touch you Soon you'll understand [Verse 1: Jay-Z] You're my best friend's sister, grown woman and all But you see how I am around girls; I ruin 'em all Plus your mom call me son, around you since I was small sh**, I watched you mature, nah, this ain't right But still when your boyfriend ditched you, life's a b**h you cried Over my right shoulder, I told you to wipe your eyes Take your time when you likin' a guy Cause if he sense that your feelings too intense, his pimp'll die I bought you earrings on your birthday Drove you to college your first day It must be sad, though it hurts to say We could never be a item, don't even like him You deserve better, this is ugly; Gina, please don't love me There's better guys out there other than me (You need a lawyer or a doctor or somebody like that you know?) Like a lawyer or a doctor with a Ph.D Think of how upset your mother and brother would be If they found that you was huggin' me My conscience is f**in' with me [Hook] [Interlude: Jay-Z] Man, I look in the eyes of our kid This whole life, a kid that stole life and me together We're tryin, really tryin to make it work I'm young, and I ain't ready, and I told you [Verse 2: Jay-Z] It ain't like, I ain't tell you from day one, I ain't sh** When it comes to relationships, I don't have the patience Now it's too late, we got a little life together And in my mind I really want you to be my wife forever But in the physical it's like I'mma be trife forever A different girl every night forever; told you to leave But you're stubborn and you love him and No matter what, despite all the f**in' and the cheatin' You still won't leave him, now you're grievin' And I feel bad, believe me But I'm young and I ain't ready, and this ain't easy Wasn't fair to tell you to wait, so I told you to skate You chose not to, now look at the sh** we gotta go through Don't wanna fight, don't wanna fuss You the mother of my baby I don't want you to hate me, this is about us Rather me; I ain't ready to be what you want me to be Because I love you, I want you to leave, please [Hook] [Interlude: Jay-Z] Listen ma, I mean, I seen you workin 2 or 3 jobs Daddy left; I thought I was making things better I made it worse [Verse 3: Jay-Z] Dear ma, I'm in the cell, lonely as hell Writing this scribe, thinking bout how you must feel inside You tried to teach me better, but I refused to grow God damn, I ain't the young man that you used to know You said the street claim lives, but I wanted things like Bling-bling ice; I was wrong in hindsight sh**, we grew apart, try to blame it on your new spouse I know it hurt like hell the day you kicked me out But your house is your house, I ain't respect the rules I brought crack past your door, beefed with rival crews And who wants to be the mother of a son who sold d**? Co-workers saw me on the corner slinging Larry Love Meanwhile, you working hard, like 2 or 3 jobs Trying to feed me and my siblings, makin an honest living Who am I kidding? I call myself easing the load I made the load heavy, I need money for commissary Try to understand, please [Hook]