J Reyez - This Pain lyrics

(verse 1) Now I don't really understand what is right If you're saying that I'm wrong and you're feeling so right But I'm feeling so right and I think that you are wrong So that means we're both right? and the both of us are wrong? I don't understand life, I can't really see a light When it's dark in my world and I'm feeling so blind And the shine we wake up to, the things in our lives And these things that we must do, just to survive When you're walking downtown everybody just brush you The industry's like a strip club too Look at everybody on the stage and they're tryin to get paid Make change and some are there in the game just to f** you over And everyone give you the cold shoulder A loner, the people in the city really do hate And everybody walk around with a screwface But I'ma reach the sky, it's never too late (verse 2) What is really hard work? I don't know what it must be Trust me, the unappreciated never succeed We gotta wait so long to get a big break See I've been breakin' my back for my city And I'm workin my a** off, I can't even sit straight (pause) They respect what I do but they diss me What I do is me so it don't make sense I didn't come in the game trying to make friends So when I don't reply, don't get offended And I don't get it, I don't know who my friends is Or who my friends are, so I'm pretending When the success starts they try to be your bestfriend And everybody fake in there own ways So many I can point out but I don't say I'm on stage and my life is like a roleplay I wanna fly but the wings already flown away (verse 3) They don't notice me when I'm helping everybody else And they say I'm co*ky when I wanna focus on myself And I'm trying to make it far and I could be better off But I'm kind and I should say my name instead of yours I don't wanna lose and I don't need luck to win Quit lying to yaself, you didn't do a f**in' thing You can't phase me, these people acting like they f**in' made me I been working and nobody ever paid me Doing my thing now, making money on my own And I'm shunning on the low, I don't care if you hate me And I gotta home, real friends where I belong It ain't wrong, I'm not a category where you can place me Appreciate myself, everything that God gave me Use it to my advantage, what I been doing lately I do it all and nobody does it for me Don't take it personal and no I ain't sorry (verse 4) I'm feeling in my zone but I'm feelin so alone With nobody that's around me, concealing what is known Every one of my surroundings, easily confusing me With my race and appealing to my own With a face that doesn't quite fit in with the community It's hard to get hot when you're dealing with the cold And there's no sign of unity, everybody stare you And every song that you release, they compare you And I'm aware too, I'm just trying to bare through Gotta be careful, the industry will tear you And don't be so fly without your parachute It changed me, now I've done what I didn't dare to do I still haven't seen money after 9 shows I've been patient, I'm feeling like the times froze I can't stand the world, I'd rather die slow I'd rather die slow, and I'm so