J-Rey - *bonus track* affliction. lyrics

Yeah. Listen. Listen. Been a minute. Im Just gonna... I don't even know.. [verse 1] Yeah Yeah waking up like should I be alive like what have I achieved but f** around with girls that wasn't really for me. Like last month my moms called me a disappointment. Like my 17 years was literally a waste. As if she couldn't have gotten rid of me as fast as NASCAR tires in a race. Daddy told her get an abortion. Like am I supposed to be here. Looking in the mirror like is my body just clear. Is everything just imagination is my girl just somebody I'm gonna f** with just for the moment. cause there's girls all over the world and I'm feeling like I'm never focused Bringing so much negativity is as if religions been hopeless. Been at my lowest low but I ain't giving signs though. Always been one to keep others in mind yo. But not at the same time. This is the battle between my mind. Good and evil but evil be much easier to find. Been in horrible states of minds like what if my dad hits could of paralyzed me. what if my momma never found a house G. Would we still be on the streets looking for a place to be. At this moment anything could have happened that's just how life be.. Looking at pictures from when I was younger. Not knowing how f**ed up this world truly is. people stuck on going to heaven or hell, but we all on hell now how can no one see how we've failed. We are truly blind trying to read this world without braille. Yeah daddy said I'm gonna go to hell because my belief in god ain't that strong. Momma wondering where she went wrong. Yeah things just happen. This ain't even rapping just me being real. Showing just how I feel. Being told by my father I ain't gonna amount to sh** He said try and prove me wrong but I ain't tryna try. Because I always knew what I was gonna do. Have success without anybody views. Because only I hold my fate. Give a f** about what anybody else gotta say.. especially if they wasn't even in my life.. to see what I've become. Now I'm the one everybody number 2. I just do what I gotta do. Give a f** about who? Names never important. Tip my hat to myself. I guess I'm the best survived abortion Predictions. Affliction [verse 2] Cause I'm the only one tryna get this belt. No tag team. I'm just fighting by my self Different outlook here's a different picture. With only me and my mind. Beauty hard to find In the destruction of time. Rhymes been like suicide cause some lines been k**ing my mind. Can't trust anybody because to many people lie. as I lie myself to sleep I pray that the truth can finally find its way to each Ear. for those with potential to hear I feel like I'm advanced in my years. Don't really f** with my peers. But I make music that they'll understand in they later years. I've been down for the count but don't count a n***a out. Cause last place got me to figure out.. how to want something so bad I'm soon to be Big the east need the hologram of B.I.G. I'm just hoping I wake up.. when I fall asleep. cause there's so much I want to see. Wanna see my brother more successful than me. Wanna see my sister become whatever it is she wants to be. But it seems like nowadays I'm just a burden to my family. yeah Y'all not understanding me Predictions Affliction. x2 [verse 3] 18. last year I think I lost my brain. So much fell apart its not hard to see why I ain't sane. Filled with propane see the explosion of my change. Still collecting change so I can make a change. I won't stop until everybody know my name. I won't stop until everybody know that I'm not the same. I won't stop until I see my family have everything. I won't stop until this money overcomes the pain. I won't stop until everyone categorizes me as greatness Cause I'm tired of waiting its time to bring total domination. I'm sorry to those that been hating cause y'all was my motivation to drop all these cla**ics. the best thing about affliction is understanding to use it to your advantage. So without a further a do f** you, you, and you. cause everything I said I'm gonna make true.. n***a