J Miller - The Return lyrics

[Intro] Turn me up a little bit [Hook] Well isn't this the same place That we found ourselves last year We said it would be different by now But what's happened in the past year I know you still believe me When I tell you I won't give up You're all I've ever wanted You're all that's been important [Verse 1] Just hoping people remember the name Cause once you get a little fame, it's never the same I work hard cause I know that success is the aim But I really want the happiness that it never could bring Cause if I fall flat They'll be them n***as tryna tell me that they called that Yeah, and if I blow up, that's the same n***as that'll show up Tryna get into a photo I don't even know you at all Want me to act hard Like I'm from the streets when I grew up in the backyard Always getting faded And even though I'm educated I don't always find the perfect way to say it Nah, n***a I don't always find the right words And my dad made it so I grew up 'round them pretty little white girls And even though your boy was legit I was still falling for these LA girls who spoiled as sh** And I know, exactly why I hate it And I know it's complicated So I can't really explain it, but I I know that there's no way that all this sh** could be okay Yeah, this sh** is pitiful My relationship with every woman has been f**ed since the middle school Acting like I never care, and never break face Ever since I got straight played in the eighth grade Yeah, but I love b**hes, and I know how it sound But when it's going good I always do some stupid sh** So when I call 'em b**hes, not tryna put 'em down It's so I don't feel so bad when I ruin it Defense mechanism everything Feeling numb to the world every time a n***a drink So I guess that's why I do it All I got is just that drink and the music And my fam want to see me getting back to who I was, like I ever could Another call to the student dean, it's never good And there ain't nothing that I can say Telling moms why I got arrested on a Wednesday sh**, things are getting hella bad Is it bad I feel more alive than I ever have I'm on my way to where my dreams lie Just hoping I don't lose myself in the meantime [Hook] [Verse 2] Fear's about the only thing to hold me back But anybody could've told me that It's funny nowadays you either got it or you don't There's no opinions man it's only facts I'm wishing I could slow it down I'm from a big city where we throw it down But when I'm at school man it seems life moves so fast for a rural town I don't even have the time to dream Or find the dreams that I'm tryna see Or let alone find the right woman so I'm f**ing every girl that be eyeing me My inspiration's going down the drain And all these songs about girls start to sound the same And what really worries me is that that sh** would only get worse if I found the fame Never giving effort to these girls I don't care if they're sh** dumb, I pick one I'm focused on my hi hats and kick drums It's 4 A.M. but I don't ever stop until that sh**'s done Now you know that's some sh** son I'm trying to rule the whole game Beat making, rapping yeah it's all in my reign Only problem is that leaves no time for that other sh** Hoping that my life don't get destroyed like the mother ship Gotta go to cla**, alright, drinking, all nights I'mma see it through like a fog light Remembering that everybody can but not everybody will Just hoping that we never staying still, n***a [Hook]